Ahhh in Life's hard pill to swallow

So I was in physics today and damn, I never felt that stupid in my life. I am in grade 13 and I was to do my finals this year but due to corona, i have to repeat my grade next year. Im kinda grateful for that because I would have flunked that exam and my life would be ruined. Now I have some sort of awakening call to push me to read so that I can do well.
Im so scared though. Sometimes I just wanna curl up and cry but nooooo, all these motivational quotes all over got my mind running wild and I really wanna do well.
Earlier my mum sent me a google doc for coding classes and I’m happy cause now I can work on my skills and hopefully make sth of my life in future.