One week. in Other life events.

Sean went away yesterday to the lake district up near Scotland with his missus, so I've decided by the time he comes back I'd like to make a real improvement on my weight loss. I'm going to push myself harder this week than ever, yesterday i went the gym with Daz, Sean's brother. I did more yesterday than i have done ever i think, i worked hard, teaming with sweat. I'm not sure why i weighed in at 15'8 a couple days ago because it just came out of nowhere, i guess it was water retention because yesterday morning i was 15'2 and now I'm back to 15'0 today. I guess i just need to put my mind to it like i did the first time i started losing weight, i think the thing that spared me on more than anything was trying to do it for Ray, but not only that i hated and despised myself so much i just wanted to destroy myself. I'd run until i couldn't run anymore and do weights and situps until i couldn't breathe.

That's my week planned anyway, among other things; my brothers trial for his sentencing is on Thursday and my driving test is on Wednesday so i guess i have a jam packed week anyway. I don't particularly want to go my brothers trial, i think it's shameful for our family and doesn't reflect how the rest of us are; he's such a black sheep.

I know i can drive competently and well, but i always let the nerves get to me when it's time for my test and i forget things and panic and its always a disaster. I just want a little luck this week, that's all I'm asking for!

Goat simulator was released this week, it's actually a lot more fun than it sounds haha :,) so I've got something to keep me entertained if only for a short while.

Been watching the remake's of the old Evangelion films, they are not disappointing as such but they don't capture the emotions of the characters like the original from the 90's did; however the artwork is still true to itself and looks beautiful and a lot of the scene's are well thought out and it doesn't drift too far from the original storyline thankfully.

Music isn't as great as it used to be either, although i guess it could just be a nostalgia factor.