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Enough in Thoughts and feelings
I want so badly for this to just be enough, you know? I smile and laugh and drink. But there's something in me that opens up and swallows all of this and keeps demanding more. I can't be satisfi...
The norm in Thoughts and feelings
The one thing I am afraid of, if I'm afraid of anything at all, is the fact that one day, 15 years from now, I will wake up and realize I have been living an average life. An average house, in an...
20 years in Thoughts and feelings
I'm not going to be the girl you marry, but I'll be the girl you'll be thinking of 20 years from now while you engage in polite sex with your boring wife, who fakes her orgasms to make you feel b...
The day you left was the worst day of my existence. Days never really got better just passed with not even an ounce of sunlight or warmth. cold and bitter like my soul, I decided I ne...
You say you want to die but, you still put your seatbelt on and look both ways before crossing the street you lock your windows and doors you would scream if someone was following you late...
accomplishments in Thoughts and feelings
sometimes people who are sad dont always need the “it gets better talk” sometimes people just want to hear “you are sad, you are trying your best, and it’s okay. you’re okay and you’re alive and...
reasons in Thoughts and feelings
We met at the wrong time. Thats what I keep telling myself anyway. Maybe one day years from now, we'll meet in a coffee shop in a far away city somewhere and we could give it another shot. But ...
sick in Thoughts and feelings
Its 3:09 in the morning and I feel sick to my stomach. A slight movement and I think I am going to vomit. Sick with the feeling that I might lose the guy I am in love with. So in love it becomes ...
crowded rooms in Thoughts and feelings
I wonder whose arms I would run and fall into if I were drunk in a room with everyone I have ever loved.
I got used to sleeping next to you way to quickly, we had four days, although it felt like an hour with you. Made a home out of your arms, your warm embraces, and sweet kisses. But now y...
firing heart in Poems
His eyes were blazing, and like hands to a fire on a cold winter's day, like a moth to a bright light, my eyes stayed on his. Time stopped. Nothing else mattered, except for the sweet heave...
I don't know who I am Or who I'm going to be or who I'm going to be two hours from now or how to stop the way my brain works or anything constant but i know how i feel about you and i a...
They say you die twice. One time when you stop breathing, and a second time, a little bit later on, when somebody says your name for the last time.
night fall in Poems
I don't know what it is about a night shower of rain and I don't know how watching the drops hit my window can be a soother and a depressant. The sound it makes confuses me with emotions cal...
Maybe seven years from now, when I'm 24 years old, I will be living somewhere new, where no one knows my name or my past. Maybe I'll live in a small apartment surrounded by books and the s...
prosebox in Thoughts and feelings
Last night my friend that I have known since elementary school texted me. I have not seen him since middle school, but we have always been close. I always knew him to be the cool kid that everyon...
*deletes existence* in Thoughts and feelings
Around 5am this morning I decided that I had enough and that I was going to commit suicide. Really do it this time. Not like I have in the past, but to make sure there would be no possible way I ...
. in Thoughts and feelings
Its 7 in the morning and I'm not so sure I want to live anymore. The fact that I slit my wrists was thrown back in my face by my brother, And my mother wiped her hands of me for good. 7 in the...
And if you're still up at 4 a.m., you are in love or lonely, and I don't know which one is worse.
5:24am // 10:50pm in Thoughts and feelings
All I wanted was for you to wake up in the middle of the night and call me saying you love me. But I couldn't even get that in a drunk text.
Awake my soul in Poems
Awake my soul resuscitate my body and fill my lungs with new air. Back from the cold depths of the ocean, the depths I floated to when I threw myself off the edge.
distant in Thoughts and feelings
I can not acknowledge the fact that we might not only be psychically distant, but emotional as well. To make light of this would be to recognize that it is real, and my heart will not be able to ...
Runaway in Thoughts and feelings
One day I will become so sick of this town, of these people that I will just leave. No warning, no notice, no indication of where I have gone. I will leave everything behind, family, friends, eve...
writing vs art in Thoughts and feelings
Most of the time I spend wishing for the ability to draw. To create powerful images with the stroke of my hand. To be able to bring tears to someone's eyes because they are hit strongly with the ...
I could never put into words, the bone shattering chill that ran through every corner of my body, when you said there were others. And how my stomach flipped when I found out they got to see you ...
