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Not much time to write, since i have a grade level chair meeting this morning at 7:30. I had a pretty intense counseling session yesterday. It left me shaky. I have to leave in a minute, but want...

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“..... keep telling us that they’re not mind-readers, so we have to communicate. But it’s hard! Especially when it’s something they might not want to hear.” I took that from a website i am perusi...

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I had some odd dreams over the weekend. First: i can face my soul in the end.... can you? Second: police abuse of power (i had two drinks last night, how can my blood alcohol be enough to hold m...

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I may or may not make sense as i talk. Lately an amorphous “emotion” or set of emotions have been building up inside of me. I have tried to sit with it (but that is always hard, because one wants...

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Monday back from school was tough. I couldn’t sleep well that night because my stomach was full from taking myself out for a nice dinner in Portland. I was emotionally raw and paranoid and anxiou...

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With spring break coming to an end, I am: -grateful -anxious -sad -confused -satisfied .............on a precipice......... looking everywhere, but somewhat bemused by gazing downward. You know, ...

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I know shouldn’t feel this way, but I do. I feel guilty because I am going to Eugene to get pedicures with a friend and to enjoy myself and get treated well by someone who appreciates me. I did ...

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The soundtrack to the past couple weeks has been a Minneapolis based alt-hip hop band, Atmosphere. This album is permeating my dreams and seeped into my brain cells as i accomplish day-to-day act...

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There is not a lot to say, except that i want to write. Maybe i will come back when i have a few. Get some relief. Cry a little.... which is something i have not done much of. I feel like i cried...

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Kevin is still living with me and it has been a little strange. He is currently saving money to move, even though we haven’t spoken about what his plans are and what his timeline looks like. But,...

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A part of the self care i promised with my therapist and self, was to write more often. So, changes are a-comin’. My application for Bellingham schools is 100% complete. I am excitedly looking f...

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I have decided to move back to Bellingham, which means leaving Kevin. I have never felt such a dichotomy of lightness of being and happiness, along with a dread of impending devastation. I know t...

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It may be a difficult path, but it will happen.

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I have been home a little less than a week. School has started and i am teaching. Home life has been difficult, my mind and heart are in tumult. I made the poor decision to skim through my old ...

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There is so much to say, and journaling is the only way I have ever been able to get it all out. I don’t even know how to start. I came back to bellingham because it has been a while. I also ha...

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I will give this place a try. I had been posting in OD sparingly lately, with wishes to post more. Perhaps i will tell a little story. A few weeks ago i drove to Port Townsend, WA for an annual ...

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So much of my heart and soul was poured into OpenDiary. I have downloaded all 10 years of it, but i wonder whether i can import them to prosebox?

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