Cobalt
I am a woman living with three cats but that doesn't make me a crazy cat lady. It's all the other stuff I do that mark me as crazy. The cats are purely incidental.
A Fragile Equilibrium
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In whatever mode in Well now
I work on the arm, going to physical therapy twice a week, following a regime of prescribed exercises several times a day at home, wearing the brace at night. It is annoying, painful, and slow-g...
I’d like to say things have turned around this week and that I am feeling physically better and emotionally more hopeful. Well, I pretty much don’t get what I like lately, so you basically know ...
Smaller by slow degrees in Well now
It’s the giving up of things, the erosion of all those things gave you comfort, the inexorable diminishment of your life by slow degrees that is so hard to bear. I have had a knack for forgetting...
Working through a really bad patch in Well now
Seven weeks since I broke my arm and things have been fairly bad. It wasn’t just the constant pain and the disability. It wasn’t just the house falling down around my ears or the amped up stres...
Not quite in the thesaurus in Boystories
Okay, if the kid had been older I would have written him a detention for being inappropriate and a smart ass, but he was just an earnestly ignorant eighth grader. He really didn’t mean anything ...
Wasn’t sure for a while there but the balance is finally shifting a bit. I am no longer spending 100 percent of my time fixated on pain - how much I have, how long until the next pill, how little...
Counting down in Well now
Right now (19) I am - Writing this entry with one hand while I - Listen to a romantic comedy movie as I - Shovel the (18) occasional spoonful of cereal sloppily into my mouth (with my left hand...
Fairly miserable in Well now
One handed typing so there’ll be a lot of short choppy sentences. Oh well. The major damage is the broken arm. Both bones in the forearm. Luckily they’re not displaced so I’ll just need casti...
All questions answered in the affirmative in Well now
Out of shape? Trying to get better? Bicycle for sale? Test ride? Pot hole? Chubby middle-aged woman in spectacular somersault over the handle-bars? Face plant on concrete? Elbow to the pave...
Not so famous last thought in Lay me down
The train was moving at a snail’s pace and it was a looooong train. Car after car after car just crawled past, not twenty feet on the other side of my windshield. Clack, pause, clack, pause, cl...
Ready, aim... in Boystories
Rubber bracelets, there’s one for every cause - diseases, sobriety, religious groups… All sorts of concepts and mottoes are stamped on every colour conceivable and worn to proclaim support. The...
Okay. I came here to write something. I didn’t really have anything to say, life’s kind of non-narrateable right now, but I thought, go to the page and something to write will come. Sometimes it ...
When you've got nothing to say... in Well now
Always remember, Two wrongs don’t make a right, But three lefts do.
Grey matter and other grey areas in Well now
Apropos of a conversation I had earlier today, I was thinking about the pineal gland. (Oh don’t ask why.) Just now I realized that, though I know it’s located in the brain, I have no earthly id...
Between earth and sky in Lay me down
Azure, that was the color of the sky. Though I knew the very definition of the word azure was the blue color of the sky, I’d never actually used or thought the word before, certainly never felt ...
The things I do because I need the paycheck in Boystories
So Tommy was sitting in Biology class today. Apparently Tommy was just a tad bored by the anatomy lesson being presented. As the teacher was lecturing, I am fairly certain that classwork at tha...
Thievery, aggressive egocentricity, and other exciting concepts in Boystories
“What are you going to do about it?” she hissed in that self-righteous everyone-else-especially-you-is-so-wrong-sheous tone. Lord how tired I am of aggressive egocentrism and those who attack ...
About that car in Well now
It's just so damned cute.On top of that, it runs wonderfully well, no worries about an imminent breakdown riding constant passenger with me. That's such a lovely feeling. My just past car was a...
Say hello to my little friend in Well now
The name is Rosebud. (And before you assume, it's not a reference to Citizen Kane.) Rosebud is a 2010 Prius hybrid with 36k on it that used to belong to my father but is now mine, mine, all MIN...
Much achoo about nothing in Well now
I have a sneeze that offends cats. Hey, I've never had a dainty sneeze, but geez, Luce, you could be a bit more forgiving. I was sitting at my table in the study, working on organizing and purg...
Well that didn't take long in Well now
My annual health insurance packet came in the mail today. It's one of those things you sort of glance at and then file. Yes, I knew that the premiums were going up, a trend exacerbated by the f...
A Bigger Boy Story in Boystories
It wasn't easy spending that kind of money on a gadget, but I made a number of nifty rationalizations and convinced myself, with the number of pedometers I've lost over the last couple years, I m...
Some Comfort Here in Well now
I have developed such a need/hate relationship with sleep. I am desperately tired most of the time, but dread falling asleep because I actually do fear I'll die. You'd think I'm just being dram...
When all the tumult dies down in Well now
I have not made a very good go of transition. As with so much of my life, I find another foundation cracked and gone. I recover so badly, worse the older I become. I am a person alienated in s...
Experiment #530516 in Boystories
It's Friday afternoon. Time to leave this hall of concentrated adolescence drama and go home for a blissfully boyless week-end. I close down my computer, lock my door, and leave the building. ...
