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In the Life Log - Day 25 in My Musings
Today was another normal day. Sleep was quite good as I clocked in about 8.5 hours and almost overslept. I attribute this to the antidepressant my psychiatrist prescribed to me. Work was uneventf...
In the Life Log - Day 24 in My Musings
Today was another so-so / average day. I got to sleep 7 hours, although not at the best quality since it was about past 4 a.m. when I finally called it a day. I shouldn’t really be staying up so ...
In the Life Log - Day 23 in My Musings
Today was a bit better than usual. I slept my usual 8-ish hours, and didn’t feel any panic attack or wave of sadness. Since it was a holiday, I decided to go to the mall and have a bit of time fo...
In the Life Log - Day 22 in My Musings
I dreamt of her again last night, and in two parts: first, with us talking about our next date and the second us talking - if anything else can be done to save whatever we had. It’s been 3 weeks ...
In the Life Log - Day 21 in My Musings
Today was one of those days again for me. I slept decently, clocking at about 8 hours and had a pretty quiet afternoon. However, I relapsed again in the afternoon as I was watching a Japanese ani...
In the Life Log - Day 20 in My Musings
Today was a very quiet day, so nothing much to write about. Had about 7-ish hours of sleep overall, but the quality could’ve been better. If there’s anything I’m thankful about, it’s not having a...
In the Life Log - Day 19 in My Musings
Today was one of those days yet again. Despite having a good 7.5 hours of sleep, the wave of sadness hit me for almost the entire day. Work was very light again - had a couple touchpoint meetings...
In the Life Log - Day 18 in My Musings
Nothing special happened today. I got to sleep a good 7.5 hours in total - a bit over, even. Work was particularly slow today, save for a couple calls that I had with regard to the project that a...
In the Life Log - Day 17 in My Musings
Today was so-so; I was able to get ~8.5 hours of straight sleep. I dreamt about her again, and in said dream, we were chatting about our next date plans. ‘Twas really nice, until I got kicked bac...
In the Life Log - Day 16 in My Musings
Today went pretty well. I was able to sleep for 10 hours (most of which were straight), which I haven’t been able to do for about 3-4 weeks. Maybe the fiasco this past Sunday (among many others) ...
In the Life Log - Day 15 in My Musings
Today was a really bad day; not the worst, but certainly part of the top 5 in the past couple weeks. I woke up about 45 minutes into my sleep, only to realize that my bedroom was starting to get ...
In the Life Log - Day 14 in My Musings
Happy Easter! Today is a day of rejoicing, as Catholics all over the world celebrate the resurrection of Jesus Christ. This festive event reminds us that light will always triumph over darkness, ...
In the Life Log - Day 13 in My Musings
Sleep last night went quite well again, having about 8.5 hours of sleep total (2 + 4 + 2.5). Maybe I should really implement a cut-off for water too so I don’t wake up just to go to the toilet. T...
In the Life Log - Day 12 in My Musings
I slept well last night; got about 8 hours in total, with 7 hours being straight. I’d like to think that going to mass yesterday and having my confession contributed to it. If the opposite holds ...
In the Life Log - Day 11 in My Musings
Sleep last night was horrible again. I was only able to get 5 straight hours of sleep and took me about another hour (or an hour and a half) to squeeze in that elusive 6th hour. Thankfully, there...
In the Life Log - Day 10 in My Musings
Sleep was slightly better last night. I had a solid 6 hours of straight sleep, then it was all tossing & turning until I got another hour. Won’t say it’s my best, but it’s somewhat of an impr...
In the Life Log - Day 9 in My Musings
Another instance of not sleeping well the night prior. It’s been.. about 3 consecutive evenings and I worry the trend would continue. I’ve also had a mini-episode of a panic attack. I hope the in...
In the Life Log - Day 8 in My Musings
I didn’t sleep well last night again. After getting about 5 hours straight of sleep, I kept dozing off and waking up every hour or so until it was finally time for me to begin work. I do hope tha...
In the Life Log - Day 7 in My Musings
I slept poorly again last night; after going to bed at 1:30 am, I kept tossing and turning to the point that I had to take a 2nd dose of chamomile tea - finally got to sleep at 3 a.m. Despite the...
In the Life Log - Day 6 in My Musings
No other way to put it than saying today is the worst so far. I can only pray and hope that tomorrow will be better. Overall rating for the day: 1/10
In the Life Log - Day 5 in My Musings
Last night’s sleep was quite lengthy again, clocking ~9 hours. I dreamt of her again; we were in a group and discussing which restaurant to try, when I suggested that we go to this place that we ...
In the Life Log - Day 4 in My Musings
Last night’s sleep was the most decent so far; I think I was able to get about almost 9 hours’ worth. While today did not have (much) crying fits, a huge wave of anxiety and panic hit me again ju...
In the Life Log - Day 3 in My Musings
I dreamt about her last night. In said dream, we were both a bit younger, and I had the chance to introduce her to my colleagues. Then I had to wake up, bringing me back to reality. I also decide...
Gray (A Poem) in My Musings
(1) I take a look outside With my eyes open wide Why do I feel this way Everything seems so gray (2) I try to comprehend And try hard to pretend That all of these make sense All the while feelin...
In the Life Log - Day 2 in My Musings
Today was pretty much the same as yesterday - multiple instances of crying, minimal appetite, and just not having the mood to do anything at all. I had to call out sick again, lest my work gets a...
