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March 19, 2024

Gray (A Poem) in My Musings

(1) I take a look outside With my eyes open wide Why do I feel this way Everything seems so gray (2) I try to comprehend And try hard to pretend That all of these make sense All the while feelin...


Today was pretty much the same as yesterday - multiple instances of crying, minimal appetite, and just not having the mood to do anything at all. I had to call out sick again, lest my work gets a...


Day 1 is always the hardest, they say, and it couldn’t be further from the truth in my case. I’ve been feeling so out of it after the past Sunday’s happenings (it’s already Tuesday, 12:55 a.m. as...


March 18, 2024

Wish (A Poem) in My Musings

I didn’t realize almost a year had passed since my last entry. I’ll make it a point to post in here again, with the goal of being consistent. (1) It’s quite sunny out there Yet all I do is stare...


March 31, 2023

A Good Month in My Musings

Despite the mood of yesterday’s entry, March was still a good month overall. I was able to gain further insight towards how others perceive me, and what necessary attitude adjustments I need to m...


While majority of my day was pretty decent, something in my mind snapped again. I’m not sure what the trigger is - could be my new colleagues, the slow pace / development, or a mixture of these a...


March 28, 2023

Dreaming in My Musings

I have been dreaming everyday for the past few weeks or so; some of which make sense, while some don’t. What I find intriguing is this has never happened to me (at least to the extent my memory s...


March 27, 2023

A Quiet Day in My Musings

Today was one of the more quiet shifts I had at work. Since I started my new job a month ago, my time was focused on meetings left and right, studying and contributing to the establishment of our...


March 23, 2023

Life Choices in My Musings

We all have our paths to carve, and the consequences of which may vary, depending which it was borne out of. As I reflect on today’s writing cue, I take a look back on how I’ve lived my life so f...


March 22, 2023

The Ideal Life in My Musings

I dream of a life that is rich, in all aspects of the word. Where the best healthcare is at an arm’s length, and getting sick is not a cause of worry. It wouldn’t cost an arm, a leg, or even both...


March 21, 2023

Locus of Control in My Musings

To myself and Jen Today I shall be kind To others and my mind I shall not get annoyed Anger I shall avoid When things won’t go my way Positive words, I’d say To turn my frustrations Into affirmat...


A few weeks ago, my writing cue had to do with holding on to something that no longer serves me. I’ve mentioned my friendship with a person I’ve known since elementary, and my feelings surroundin...


What constitutes success? As I ponder on today’s writing cue, I cannot help contemplating yet again. It is multi-faceted, yes, but that makes it even the more complicated. So to answer the questi...


March 13, 2023

Greatest fear in My Musings

I am afraid that I will be forgotten. Time does not spare anyone, after all; in due course, everything that once was will merely fade and just be a distant memory, if lucky. If I was not fearful,...


March 09, 2023

Gut Feel in My Musings

Intuition is an irony. It is spontaneous and has very little logic, yet we let it take part in our decision making. As I reflect on today’s writing cue, I do not have the faintest of idea when an...


March 08, 2023

Peaks and Valleys in My Musings

I was browsing Reddit yesterday when I came across the post “What screams that someone peaked in High School?”. I’m not sure if grateful is the correct word to use, given that I did not fall unde...


We have this tendency to hold on even if there’s no longer an actual purpose to do so - whether it may be a person, relationship, belief, or material object. We try to salvage whatever we can, th...


February 28, 2023

Healing and Moving On in My Musings

What does it take to be healed? To move on and be free from the chains that bind? I finished Khaled Hosseini’s “The Kite Runner” this past weekend. While there were a number of heavy / uncomforta...


February 24, 2023

Walls and Gates in My Musings

Today’s cue is about what makes me guarded, and what do I need to trust again? I think of myself as being naturally guarded. One has to, especially when not everyone looks out for your (or my) se...


February 23, 2023

A Feeling of Safety in My Musings

I’ve been to a number of places - all of them with breathtakingly beautiful sceneries. There’s only one place I can consider my go-to, however, and that would be the gym. There’s a certain solace...


February 22, 2023

Self-Love in Hardship in My Musings

Today is Ash Wednesday, which marks the official start of Lent. I’d like to share some of the priest’s points in the homily which really resonated with me, and how these relate to the topic at ha...


Today’s entry will be shorter than usual as there’s not much to write. See, while I have fumbled a lot in the past, these are but events long gone. At this point, I have already made peace with h...


February 20, 2023

Of Being Disconnected in My Musings

I remember a few weeks ago when I was speaking to Jen (hello if you’re reading this 😆) about this particular feeling of unease. It’s not new to me, as I had similar encounters in the past. That t...


February 17, 2023

Letter to Myself in My Musings

February 17, 2023 10:24 p.m. GMT+8 Dear younger self, At this moment, you’re most likely living your best life. Aside from the homework, crushes, and hobbies, there’s not a hint of worry in your ...


February 16, 2023

Improving Self-Love in My Musings

I mentioned in my post yesterday that self-love is an area I’ve been trying to work on. It is not without its difficulties, but there’s certainly some progress. A key concept I’ve been consciousl...


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