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Another slow day yet again. I slept about 8 hours, and had vivid dreams; must be due to the antidepressant yet again. Work didn’t have anything much going on - I stayed idle for a good half of t...


11 hours ago

Dream (A Poem)

Dreamt of us last night And both of us were laughing Then my eyes opened


Today was another normal day. Sleep was quite good as I clocked in about 8.5 hours and almost overslept. I attribute this to the antidepressant my psychiatrist prescribed to me. Work was uneventf...


Today was another so-so / average day. I got to sleep 7 hours, although not at the best quality since it was about past 4 a.m. when I finally called it a day. I shouldn’t really be staying up so ...


Today was a bit better than usual. I slept my usual 8-ish hours, and didn’t feel any panic attack or wave of sadness. Since it was a holiday, I decided to go to the mall and have a bit of time fo...


I dreamt of her again last night, and in two parts: first, with us talking about our next date and the second us talking - if anything else can be done to save whatever we had. It’s been 3 weeks ...


Today was one of those days again for me. I slept decently, clocking at about 8 hours and had a pretty quiet afternoon. However, I relapsed again in the afternoon as I was watching a Japanese ani...


Today was a very quiet day, so nothing much to write about. Had about 7-ish hours of sleep overall, but the quality could’ve been better. If there’s anything I’m thankful about, it’s not having a...


Today was one of those days yet again. Despite having a good 7.5 hours of sleep, the wave of sadness hit me for almost the entire day. Work was very light again - had a couple touchpoint meetings...


April 04, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 18

Nothing special happened today. I got to sleep a good 7.5 hours in total - a bit over, even. Work was particularly slow today, save for a couple calls that I had with regard to the project that a...


April 03, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 17

Today was so-so; I was able to get ~8.5 hours of straight sleep. I dreamt about her again, and in said dream, we were chatting about our next date plans. ‘Twas really nice, until I got kicked bac...


April 02, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 16

Today went pretty well. I was able to sleep for 10 hours (most of which were straight), which I haven’t been able to do for about 3-4 weeks. Maybe the fiasco this past Sunday (among many others) ...


April 01, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 15

Today was a really bad day; not the worst, but certainly part of the top 5 in the past couple weeks. I woke up about 45 minutes into my sleep, only to realize that my bedroom was starting to get ...


March 31, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 14

Happy Easter! Today is a day of rejoicing, as Catholics all over the world celebrate the resurrection of Jesus Christ. This festive event reminds us that light will always triumph over darkness, ...


March 30, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 13

Sleep last night went quite well again, having about 8.5 hours of sleep total (2 + 4 + 2.5). Maybe I should really implement a cut-off for water too so I don’t wake up just to go to the toilet. T...


March 29, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 12

I slept well last night; got about 8 hours in total, with 7 hours being straight. I’d like to think that going to mass yesterday and having my confession contributed to it. If the opposite holds ...


March 28, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 11

Sleep last night was horrible again. I was only able to get 5 straight hours of sleep and took me about another hour (or an hour and a half) to squeeze in that elusive 6th hour. Thankfully, there...


March 27, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 10

Sleep was slightly better last night. I had a solid 6 hours of straight sleep, then it was all tossing & turning until I got another hour. Won’t say it’s my best, but it’s somewhat of an impr...


March 26, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 9

Another instance of not sleeping well the night prior. It’s been.. about 3 consecutive evenings and I worry the trend would continue. I’ve also had a mini-episode of a panic attack. I hope the in...


March 25, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 8

I didn’t sleep well last night again. After getting about 5 hours straight of sleep, I kept dozing off and waking up every hour or so until it was finally time for me to begin work. I do hope tha...


March 24, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 7

I slept poorly again last night; after going to bed at 1:30 am, I kept tossing and turning to the point that I had to take a 2nd dose of chamomile tea - finally got to sleep at 3 a.m. Despite the...


March 23, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 6

No other way to put it than saying today is the worst so far. I can only pray and hope that tomorrow will be better. Overall rating for the day: 1/10


March 22, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 5

Last night’s sleep was quite lengthy again, clocking ~9 hours. I dreamt of her again; we were in a group and discussing which restaurant to try, when I suggested that we go to this place that we ...


March 21, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 4

Last night’s sleep was the most decent so far; I think I was able to get about almost 9 hours’ worth. While today did not have (much) crying fits, a huge wave of anxiety and panic hit me again ju...


March 20, 2024

In the Life Log - Day 3

I dreamt about her last night. In said dream, we were both a bit younger, and I had the chance to introduce her to my colleagues. Then I had to wake up, bringing me back to reality. I also decide...


Book Description

A collection of my thoughts, however random they might be.