SamiMarieSaysSo
Fifty year old crone making her way in big bad L.A.
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What's done in the dark... in Musings and Misgivings
TW/CW: Self Injury/Suicide There is a woman on Threads who claimed to be a medic working in Minneapolis and saw Alex Pretti die was posting dozens of suicidal messages. People jumped in to help...
We are going to be friends... in Musings and Misgivings
My therapist has been suggesting that I put myself out there online, posting about seeking new friends. I was planning on a post yesterday, but I first did a quick gratitude ritual with an offer...
Tuesday, please be kind to me in Musings and Misgivings
I panicked myself into exhaustion yesterday with the looming apartment inspection. I did not know WHO would be doing the inspection, so I made sure that everything was as clean and tidy as possi...
A night at the theater in Musings and Misgivings
I had a great time at the theater yesterday afternoon. I was having stomach issues right as we left the house to go to the play. I told Rick if I hadn’t committed to going, I would’ve asked him ...
Sunday in Musings and Misgivings
Yesterday, I felt the shift. The first domino being tipped. People are waking up. While this is VERY SCARY, and I know there is worse coming, I believe there is a light at the end of a very long...
Temporary in Musings and Misgivings
I helped a stranger on the internet change their mind about ending their own life two days ago. It was an all day interaction. High stress, calling authorities, messaging with others trying to h...
Working on it in Musings and Misgivings
I have felt like death warmed over for quite a while. Vomited yesterday morning. But I figured out the common denominator with the instances of being sick. Unfortunately, that issue is Ambien. T...
Ms. Shirley Got Her Wings in Musings and Misgivings
Today, we lost one of the helpers. Here in Los Angeles, Shirley Raines was a tireless advocate for the homeless. Providing meals, haircuts, health and beauty products, and friendship to THOUSAND...
Just another day... in Musings and Misgivings
Today is a new day. I am feeling better today. But I am convinced that the only way I am going to get through the fall of the United States is by going back on anti-depressants. I have made a va...
the Invisible Woman in Musings and Misgivings
I feel like I am enveloping into myself and disappearing. And no one seems to notice. It’s hard to feel like much matters. There’s just me. In the apartment, day after day. I take a walk daily ...
Always catching up in Musings and Misgivings
I have been writing entries, getting halfway through, getting distracted, and then walking away. I always come back, sometimes the next day, to finish it up. I just came back to an entry to clos...
Rain on Parade Day in Musings and Misgivings
We live in a little community called Highland Park, and our apartment is next to the bridge leading to South Pasadena. I love Pasadena. It is such a beautiful city, rich in history and amazing a...
Junk in Musings and Misgivings
I have decided I want to get into junk journaling. I have long been into scrapbooking and also have been creating collages for as long as I can remember, so I thought I could maybe blend the two...