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OCI interviews are done, at least in My life
I’m not going to get ANY job from this. I already know that. I’m just glad to be done with them without having made a big fool of myself once. They were okay. All the hearing appearances this sum...
Email/texting anxiety, yet again in My life
I need help on this conditions. Idk why I am so grossed out by writing emails or texting. What is the root cause of this, really? I’m letting people wait. No wonder why I have no friends. No frie...
Working on being happy in My life
Well yesterday I was wallowing and cranky at him and ended up crying in his arms to sleep. I have a saint for a husband and I am the absolute idiot for not appreciating that. His energy will drai...
I don't want this marriage to fail in My life
I’ve been married for 17 days. I don’t know why I just can’t be happy. I let daily stresses interfere with my marriage. I’m just feeling so down. I don’t know whether I should express my stress t...
Goals and finding a will to go on in My life
Well my law school career is completely in the trash can, now. I have no idea how to revive it. I dread third year. Maybe when I start that full-time job, I will be better? I just feel like being...
They blame me in My life
They all blame me. They made numerous mistakes and yet I’m here to take the burden of cleaning up the messes. I’m not the fraudulent one. Honestly I just can’t see how they could have just bold-f...
More of my life (literally can't think of a title) in My life
Wedding happened. It was amazing. Literally amazing. Everything was perfect. I even liked the water station. Just that little thing. The caterer had water, lemonade, tea and coffee throughout the...
Email anxiety—my affliction for all my life in My life
Anyone else has it? I’m sick of this affliction. I’m sick of it. I feel like a terrible person. I am a terrible person, just because I can’t write emails timely. I have resolved so many times to ...
I will never be a happy person... in My life
… and that’s okay. I will just go on and try to do the right things. But I am not happy. I won’t be for a long, long time. I have responsibilities and I attain a kind of spiritual happiness for f...
Another day... I abhor my life in My life
Yeah I keep titling my entries like this. Just wait until I lose whatever that I currently have, huh? Please, I’m trying though. I’m still trying. Still, I hate being an effing failure. I hate it...
Another day... I detest my life in My life
I feel like I will just hate being a lawyer. Hate it. I’m so slow these days. Absolutely hate myself for it. Wasting my own time. Alright, let me also write that email now. OK. Finally done wit...
Another day... I loathe my life in My life
In very typical me fashion. I became awake at 5:30 and still in bed now at 6. I want to do arm exercise from my computer now. Alright, so I did all my grading yesterday. And I just caught up with...
Another day... I hate my life in My life
Okay, I did not work up at 4:30 like I planned. Should have known I’d never stick to that things. Would have been better to plan realistically for 5:30 or something. Woke up at 6. Stayed in bed u...
Get all the negative feelings out, ya know. I hate writing emails. I hate it. I’ve been thinking about some people for months and yet I’m NOT writing them, no matter how much I try. I’ve been try...
I hate job applications but I need a job in My life
I suck at interviews. I’m just so dumb. I can’t speak with confidence. The last OCI really scarred me. All the effort to no, absolutely no avail. I hated especially the interviews with a certain ...
Where did all my time go? Oh yeah, reading Prosebox. I knew it from back then. Prosebox is pretty awesome- when people are telling their real story and all the feelings are real. Honestly, the be...
Do you keep in touch with old co-workers? in My life
Like, what if you really like them? Anyway. I want to be successful. Why am I not successful? What am I doing wrong with my life? Google “Why am I not successful?” I feel like whatever I do, th...
I cannot live my life like this anymore in My life
I’ve had it. Tired of being sad. Tired of wasting my life being sad. Tired of suffering in silence because I have no one to talk to. I just can’t. From now on, I want to do s*** with my life. I ...
Communication in a relationship in My life
I tell him something. I don’t like his responses to me. We go back and forth, and he gets frustrated. I am annoyed. Why doesn’t he support me? I am reminded, on my own or by him, that he does sup...
A Sunday of sadness in My life
I just wallow in my own sadness these days. It’s too dumb to tell anyone so I say it here. I want to say sorry to all the kind commenters who commented on my earlier posts. I’m sorry to say that ...
I just want to wallow in my pity hole and do nothing in My life
I am just really sad and embarrassed. I try and try and never get the results I want. I’m embarrassed next to my fiance. Today he noted that I seem to love self-deprecating humor a lot. Well yeah...
They messed up my placement... in My life
The Attorney’s Office where I’m working this summer did. Man I was mad. Just as I thought I couldn’t possibly get any lower, it just got lower. I’m disappointed enough that it’s the only job I go...
B+ for Legislation and Regulation in My life
At least that’s it. That’s all for an awful semester. I’m not giving up on my dreams, but I guess I am allowed to be miserable for quite a while. You know when you think of yourself as something,...
A for Evidence but B+ for Practical Estate Planning in My life
Well I would cry but I guess I ran out of tears. I thought I did well on Practical Estate Planning, I really did. Dreams shattered. I would say at least all is not lost but whenever I say that, ...
… about my grades, oh yeah. At 29 years old. How pathetic is that? I just laid in bed and cried for a whole hour today. I did feel better afterwards. Still, other grades are coming in so I’m not ...
