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Something peculiar I’ve noticed After any particularly heated incident, I notice that I ignore things. Discard them. Things that aren’t allowed into my conscious awareness. Right now, it’s o...

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I could just cry. Really. I feel so damn emotional. The beauty and relief I feel is so intense. It’s a realization that all this stuff that I thought was mine to work out-that I mistook for wo...

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That feeling in the moment of an interaction that is like , “this is a real-time lesson for you. Pay attention.” ? Well, I had that the other day. Friday, speaking to a friend, she said somethi...

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The simplest things being me the most profound joy. It may not look simply from the stuff set out, but the intent is simple and pure. Clean the sky. Return it to nature. Nourish life. The ...

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Victimization In myself and in others. I want to never feel like the victim of anyone, or anything. And I’m not taking the blame, either. If I’m experiencing a dissatisfactory circumstance...

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I feel guilt for the simple reason that being in contact with my mom is not good for me, but that she doesn’t necessarily have the ability to be good for me; and she expresses her pain and remor...

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It occurred to me, today, that “there is nothing new under the sun” is an inversion. It’s a lamentation- I think, anyways- that no-thing is unique, everything has been done already, every possi...

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I just walked the property line with my tuning forks after digging 5 holes and filling them with biochar and crystals. The LOOK my neighbors gave me. I’m still dying 🤣

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Every time I become more embodied, I see shit. Instantly. Stuff that is impossible, that shouldn’t be there. That isn’t there, physically, but it is there. And, it freaks me out. On a fundamen...

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I experience big ones and little ones. Today, I am aware of a particularly big one. I remember falling sleep to the somewhat troubling conundrum of my unconscious habits. Most poignantly sur...

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How I was just complaining about not wanting to start a business or go out of my way to do all this work, and yet here I am doing A LOT of work 😂 I’m not lazy. I never have been. I think I just...

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Yesterday on Joel’s call, I had such an interesting experience. I as deliberating about speaking. Usually, if I am deliberating, I assume that I just need to do it. This time I didn’t make t...

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Right now as I looked out the window and saw something- whether it was a man, a dog, a being, but something- and then I saw nothing, that I often only see things when other people are asleep. ...

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I just realized that I’m psychic. Not in a vague way. In a very specific and intense way. It has often occurred to me that something that I’ve experienced as if it were my own- a thought, a ...

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I feel ready to confront the terror of the possibility that my dreams or intent may have a direct effect upon reality. You know, it’s like that moment in Harry Potter when Hagrid asks Harry if...

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Quite the same after having a baby. After breastfeeding, any time I feel turned on I immediately think oh shit, I’m going to start leaking! And have to find some way to run to a bathroom and ch...

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interacts with my unique structure and produces thoughts and feelings in me entirely distinct, individual, and irreproducible. There will never be a feeling or thought exactly like the one I ju...

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a MOMENT right now. I dreamed about Capricorn. Yes… An astrological sign. An Earth sign. The sign of grounded doing. The goat climbs up the earth mountain. There is further mystery here, for ...

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Is funny. One moment I know that I’m skeptical and expecting doubt. Then, it seems like only a short while later, I haven’t got a single doubt down to my bones. I’m ready to run off a cliff if...

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The novel that has languished unfinished both in text and in my imagination for over a decade. I need to finish it. I finally figured out what it is about:)

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is always a good sign lol It’s funny how memories are.... When I had no experience of remembering them, it was as if those memories did not exist at all. There was nothing- not a hind- to my co...

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Split the difference. Go down the center. Remain in the middle. Be ever grounded in the handle of the tuning fork; observing the interplay between the 2 forks. I stared at the shadow of the pe...

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I am being braided up and down and through my core. Into my Oversoul and into my spirit. Gently, slowly, it has worked. Patiently and tirelessly out of love. And duty. There is a certain co...

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is not a goal to strive toward by grasping and attaining for oneself, but a state to move into in order to receive it. Understanding is a place. It is a FEELING resonance. Which once we arrive...

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11:11:11 “And it was so on the morrow, that Sha’ul put the people in three companies; and they came into the midst of the host in the morning watch and slew the Ammoniym until the heat of the d...

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