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security via anonymity

by SDAT

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June 24, 2022

pain?

for four years now, I’ve been occasionally experimenting with hanging myself up from the basement ceiling. typically only in warmer weather for comfort reasons, and always in a configuration that...


September 07, 2021

DJ 20210907

I dreamed a cruise that started out somewhere in the UK, and then when I wasn’t paying attention, shifted to Sweden without anyone having told me – I guessed/deduced it from the much different sc...


September 04, 2021

DJ 20210904

going over a patch of grass with a reel mower and seeing it look fine, then coming back and taking a few more passes and being dismayed to see that the successive passes were wearing down the gra...


December 27, 2020

12/27/2020

now that I’ve been married twelve years, I can say that I do miss sex, but not enough to actually ever do it again and risk a pregnancy. rather, what I miss in a less conditional manner is having...


September 10, 2019

just once.

you, me, not much (but nonzero) clothing, a wide open carpeted floor space, some lengths of soft rope, maybe some immovable furniture with legs, the knowledge that one of us is going to end up ti...


January 17, 2019

DJ 2019-01-17

I don’t remember what happened up to this point, but I was at some kind of small party at a house, and there came a point (I think it was between 8 and 9 PM when the hour and minute hand cross) w...


is there a term for something that’s like gaslighting but sees you deliberately doing or saying little things that make someone else question your memory or sanity instead of their own?


October 19, 2017

uncaught.

a simulated sense of predation. the feeling that I could be pounced on and toyed with, as if by a cat. or held down and plucked, as if by a hawk. or wrapped up and bound fast, as if by a spider. ...


April 06, 2017

seen on Facebook

“Children shouldn’t have to sacrifice so that you can have the life you want. You make sacrifices so your children can have the life that they deserve.” and THIS is exactly why I don’t want to b...


June 20, 2016

2016-06-20 (not a DJ)

“Are you okay?” I cocked an eyebrow. “Why? Aren’t you?” “Yeah, I’m fine.” “Then I’m sure as hell not about to be otherwise.” But instead of stopping cold at that line and demanding to know what...


Dw i ddim eisiau cath. Dw i eisiau draig.


January 12, 2016

a proverb reconsidered.

whoever said “want of money is the root of all evil” obviously never had problems in his/her love life.


February 02, 2015

defensive rebounding.

(Author’s note: Please excuse the poetry on a site called Prosebox; but this is some of the best inspiration I’ve had in a long time – I haven’t written a poem in years – and I have nowhere else ...


... how do people decide whom to pursue for a romantic partnership?


March 06, 2014

long-term investments.

I'd better be seeing some payoff from this whole parenting thing in another 10-20 years, because right now I've had just about enough of it and want my time and my freedom back. and this is even...


Book Description

a continuation of my open diary after that site suddenly shut down.