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It Seemed Like
20 minutes but it had been 2 hours. 2 hours that I spent dreaming in the bathtub. And writing that dream down. I’m staring at the page right now. It seems surreal. Somehow more than real. Li...
The New Earth has Arrived
I don’t know how I know this. But I feel it. It’s in my bones. It’s in the way heart is melting and shivering with the intensity. I recognize in some indescribable way my peers. They appear to...
Peace
In knowing I spoke to Joel today and it was refreshing. Reassuring. A nice way to hash out with someone who has experienced these things and know that I’m not crazy. Or particularly in dire str...
Interaction
Last night I dreamt of this general theme. I woke seeing a figure of a man sitting in lotus position backlit by a divine golden light. I woke to this image several times. I have a sense that tha...
Dreaming
Is it possible to dream ourselves into a new reality? Right out of the division and vampirism. And into a universal type of peace. I don’t mean anything so idealistic that I, or any one pers...
Denial Years
Yesterday, I awoke with something that I hadn’t bad conscious access to for 17 years. I got up and showered in the dark. I didn’t turn on my lights. The night before, we had gone out into the ...
Recapitulation
The quality of this word has grown for me over the weekend. As I recapitulate the experience of seeing my eyes in the mirror as silver alien saucers, I feel an undeniable surge of pleasant ene...
They Eyes
In the mirror appeared too big for my face. I blinked. They were mine. I studied them. Silvery fog, ringed by lighter color and darker towards the center. They grew slightly or contracted sligh...
Thumped by Spirit
I feel like I been hit over the head - right into Oz. Or somewhere similarly magical. I woke up with incredible insights into my life. My childhoods. Consciousnesses. Perception. And energy. ...
An Update
It’s so difficult to remember what day something happened anymore. I constantly check the calendar. My sense of time has gone completely. Uuhg. Duh. I just remembered I started that mushroom s...
AI is an Egregore
was a post that I saw, yesterday. From an old acquaintance who, recently, has been taking on the mantle of anti-patriarchal pagan witch champion. Of course it is, I thought. Of course it is. ...
The Space
inside me seems to mirror the external world. I feel so expansive. I see the neediness for connection and it’s response- defensiveness of personal space; the wish for a protector warrior with ...
The Consciousness Aperture
If BioGeometry has taught me anything, it is the absolute fallacy of the belief that we can be objective, or limited to physically perceptible phenomena. The first time I swung a pendulum, and...
Something beautifully strange
About the sky tonight After I finished doing a clearing of myself, and then the 3-mile radius map image of the area surrounded our home, as I often do, I sensed and felt surreal things. When ...
Living Among the Dead
Interestingly, the word “plastic” came out without any thought, a couple of times. I wondered why? Plastic is dead. It’s hard and unyielding until melted, and then formed into something enti...
Jump and the Net will Appear
And other lessons Such a long time has gone by since I took a no-holds-back dive into obsessive avoidance patterns. Whew! Was that a ride. I woke to meditate and gain increasing clarity the...
Orientation
I felt a transition, and there was a giant tsunami wave to my right. Like a wall of water. I looked out at the basin-shaped land before me, full of people and their society, and took one step ba...
Mine is slow
Vision changes, a perception of spaciousness, the light and depth seem somehow hyper real- surreal. Many describe their journey as an instantaneous transition to something else - some other ki...
What do Butterflies do?
I’m sitting here at the park with my kids and noticed that I can really see the auras around the trees very clearly. It’s midday. Typically I only “notice” them at dawn or dusk. I know that the...
My Past Lives
And current purpose Show up really meaningfully. I met a part of me that was forged through persistent, direct contact with animals throughout a life that my spirit experienced long ago. It’...
Fem >_ Masc
In revelatory splendor, my whirled is once again blown away by the realization of deeper levels of inversion. It began with a feeling. A shallow, but insistent feeling in my stomach. It was ne...
Seemed appropriate
Weekly Verse, Week 14 -Calendar of the Soul, by Rudolph Steiner “Surrendering to senses’ revelation I lost the drive of my own being, And dreamlike, thinking seemed To daze and rob me o...
The Spirit Matter
The answer to life, the universe, and everything. As I innerstand it. Not gonna pretend it’s totally comprehensible. Here goes. My core inner experience since the time I was born in this lif...
I love to Write
Under the Blessed Pine. I feel more grounded and connected to myself. Yesterday, I had an experience that required some deep integration. And, after this experience, maybe a handful of hours l...
Evidentiary Observations
I had been experiencing thoughts of doubts- first, a doubt about my decision to internalize and redeem Black Beauty. This thought was subtle but persistent so that it came up and interrupted my...
Book Description
Yep. Just like it says
