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Kenny time!
I had a lovely time with Kenny last night. I drove out to him in the afternoon, we fucked marvelously, and went to the dance together. I hung all over him, and anyone seeing us together would be ...
Ian is still bullshit
In the morning of our day off together, I was being flirty. I told him we could just do some kissing. Ian was a little affectionate, but said that he was hungry. Somehow he stays in bed lots of t...
Food, spotting, distress from counseling, feeling alone
After work today, I went grocery shopping. I came home and sauteed onions, zucchini, yellow squash, carrots, garlic, and sausage. I added a little salt and a little cheese, and put it in a tortil...
Birthday menu
Here's the dinner I want to make for Kenny and I for my birthday: Baby spinach, heirloom tomato, avocado, and pine nuts with 25 year balsamic and champagne vinaigrette Bronzed sea bass with ...
Broke, kinky bar, dad's birthday outing, hold me
I ran out of money for a few days. I lost track of some of the money I was spending. My new health insurance, fancy kitty litter box, headset, and contributing to groceries made me broke. Dusti...
Keri wants to see Ian and I for individual sessions. She wants to go deeper into Ian's anxiety about sexuality, and into how I feel when I don't get the attention I want. I told them about the c...
Gotta get ready for the girl sex (Enter: Jenn)
I had to turn off my sad music, which is a 35 minute loop of a Maxence Cyrin cover of "Where is my mind" by the Pixies: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=If_NgKWJhKs I mean, that's just a recipe f...
Next year, and good days
This time next year, I want to be living in a house full of room mates-- maybe three. Maybe a mix of guys and girls. Every once in a while we have shared family meals, but usually everyone does t...
Skin care is expensive, but I'm now gorgeous :p
Two years ago if someone told me that I would be spending so much money on skin care, I would have been very, very surprised. I'm going to take this opportunity to just write down the laundry lis...
I haven't seen Ian since Tuesday night, and I won't see him until late Monday night. It's been heaven. He's at the dance camp in Oregon, and I love it. I would have gone, except for a few things...
Enter: Pole dancing
Pole dancing is totally happening, and that's what I'm apparently going to be doing with my Saturday mornings starting at 8:30am. Oh dear god. It'll be better than the gym, because I'll be mot...
I bought myself a new headset online, and then went to sleep and had a dream about it. I put it in my ear, and a sexy male voice was orienting me to my headset and cracking jokes. It was awesome....
Dustin kiss, a sober one
I got Dustin to kiss me last night at Shades. We were being snuggly and quiet for a long time, and I made it perfectly obvious that I wanted to kiss him, and he had his head tilted down so that I...
Glowing here now, I suppose
Yes, well. This will have to do. I had my diary for over ten years on OD-- 341 entries now downloaded and archived. It would be very inconvenient to repost them up here. So, yes. It's 4:23am.
Kenny paleo sleepover, Mardi Gras party
I went to go see Kenny on Thursday, and it was a lot of fun. I think something is up with him, though. We aren't talking as much as we had been, and he didn't seem like he wanted to spend that mu...
Permission from Keri, taking care of myself
I've been doing alright. I enjoy the counseling sessions with Ian, and tensions have eased a bit here at home. I now help with dishes and shopping and whatnot. I have kept my stinging comments to...
Vague goals and impatience
I read something about setting goals, and how it's good for you. It offered categories. Let's see how that works out: physical- healthy mind and body, and living space artistic- writing, paintin...
Horny as usual
Got to dance with David K last night. What a hottie. I'm also making friends with his girlfriend, and I think she might like girls at least a little bit. If you can't beat em, join em. Which, in ...
Christmas presents
Mom- momma girly stuff Dad- massage? Ian- massage Joseph- snack plate: grapes, cheese, crackers, salami Stacey- pumpkin chocolate chip bread Erica- necklace, scones Dom- pumpkin chocolate chip br...
Enter Fallon and Kenny W, mac and cheese and rack of lamb
At the dance on Monday I met a girl. Her name is Fallon, and she smells like sandalwood. My girlfriend in high school smelled like that, and boy was she trouble. Her boyfriend gave me her number,...
Argh
Let's try this again.
what's the best part about butterflies?
Christmas day, how 'bout that? It's stupid, but all I can think of is Zella. I see something cool, I wish Zella were there so she could see it too. I think something awful and I feel better when ...
