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Day 1, Journal 1- Why I'm here

by MoodyBuzz

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July 19, 2020

Insomnia

Due to intense anxiety from recent traumas and mental health issues. Don’t ask your doctor to prescribe you sleeping pills! I have been experiencing insomnia. I also stupidly use my phone at nigh...


Book Description

I recently had a series of intense breakdowns over feeling discarded and abandoned by a recent ex boyfriend. I wanted to get back together with him but I know he does not respect me. I pleaded, begged to work on things, and poured my heart and soul out to this person. No response. I ended up calling it quits because I was being too needy and the silent treatment hurt me more than anything. The relationship was tumultuous. We did not respect each other. I felt emotionally abused and neglected by him. I was too needy, moody, and a complete doormat. I overstayed my welcome at his place because I wanted to escape from the drama going on at home…and I wanted to escape from myself. This was one of the many incidents that contributed to my recent breakdowns. Years of enduring family dysfunction, being bullied throughout elementary and high school, regrettably becoming a victim-bully myself, and struggling with my mental health challenges have interfered with my academics, interpersonal relationships, and my self-esteem.
Enough is enough. I want to help others who struggle with their mental health. I’ve gotten into therapy and I am determined to change for the better. Together, we can make big improvements. Please don’t view negative circumstances as setbacks, these are blessings in disguise and an opportunity for growth and change. Together, we can make that change.