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The Things I Write When My Mind Won't Sleep

by anonwoe

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May 05, 2022

Statue of stone

When my eyes left the ground all the pedestals I put you on finally came crashing down And I’m not sure if the weight that lifted was my shackles coming off or the feeling of your loss My mind ...


August 29, 2021

God Bless America

Check one two Check one two Can anybody hear me? I said can anybody hear me? I SAID can anybody HEAR ME I guess not So I will speak into the silence And raise my voice One Twice I will make th...


August 29, 2021

How you have taken over

When I can’t sleep I listen to piano and pretend it’s you at the keys When I can’t feel I lay with pillows and pretend you’re holding me When I can’t cry I stare away and pretend you’ll notice me...


August 29, 2021

Learning to Love

I’ve never felt the feeling of falling into a bottomless hole Not until I looked up and saw your eyes for the first time All of a sudden the stars started to shine in the middle of the day and th...


August 29, 2021

Picky

I want a hug but just from you Which I know is impossible to do This thing in my head has changed me But even when it almost hanged me All I wanted was you I really do get the gist But it just k...


August 29, 2021

Travelling Depression

I feel like my heart is going to explode And my head is in a different area code Far too far away to do anything to try and save the day So my heart bursts and I can feel the overwhelming hurt f...


August 29, 2021

Clash of the Sea and Sun

The was a boy who was born with the sun shining on his face His eyes were the deepest blue and his mind, a maze And when the rays of light reflected on his tears the moon raged and the tide made ...


August 29, 2021

How I Hate

I hate that I have to skip my favorite songs because you showed me them I hate that I have to avoid my favorite building because you might be there I hate that I can skip class and you don’t care...


August 29, 2021

When things change

You used to text me every morning And talk to me every night We walked home together And sat outside my room for hours We talked about your life and mine We had more inside jokes than hours sleep...


August 29, 2021

Renovation

The kitchen is rearranged, none of the pictures are the same And I don’t know how to live in this old house without you All the memories remain, but even I am not the same I’m looking out the ...


October 26, 2019

Decisions

I make bad decisions sometimes Like when I jump I close my eyes and miss the fall, the best part of it all next thing I know I’m laying on the ground the stars up above are spinning round and rou...


September 29, 2019

A Rebellion

The bell tolls once for each one of the dead. A town sleeping for the first time since the battle began. Rain beating the ground as silent tears fall for all of those lost. The bridges and tower...


September 20, 2019

I think i love you

I think I love you. this might be a problem because I don’t think you love me too. I of course love you as a friend, ive never had someone as close to me as you are, but I think I love you in ano...


April 07, 2019

Nerves

First Date Ever Jitters, nerves? Not going anywhere Probably I dont know what to say I dont know what to do Shaking Stuttering Scar...


April 01, 2019

Prints

Foot prints in the barren snow A bitter red to haunt my dreams A shadow of the deepest silk A shadow of deception Smooth words where there are rough edges Rough hands where there should be gentl...


March 06, 2019

Colors

Red seeps from every pore saturating the world with crimson stifling in its oppressiveness but hopeful Green stares back at you from across the room the reflection of an escaping emotion in your...


March 05, 2019

Future

When I look into the future I see a lot of great things I see the house I always wanted, the modern Victorian the one in the historic side of Dubuque with the stone basement and pool in the back ...


March 05, 2019

One Last Round

I raise my glass for one final round A round for the friends I have To the old ones I lost and the new ones Ive found To my family whos been here through it all So im signing off, heres my goodb...


March 05, 2019

Four Whys

Why am I so broken Why am I so scared Why am I so ashamed every time I speak every time I think and every time I care Why am I so scared


March 05, 2019

Journey

You boots left vivid imprints upon the dry ground that cry out for redemption as they slowly bleed away. I followed them well, I followed your path, your journey the best I could. And now here I ...


March 05, 2019

Bed

The world seems to shift on its very axis when you’re in bed. In the bright midday sun when all problems seem so small and insignificant compared to what they were mere seconds ago. Or int he abs...


March 05, 2019

Nights of Tears

Its nights like this where I feel so alone Its nights like this where I don’t think I can go on Its nights like this where no one seems to hear The calling, the screaming, the crying for help. Th...


March 05, 2019

Sorry My Dear

Im so sorry that I had to go this way Im so sorry that I hurt you all But I can’t stand alone for much longer and I can’t be alone for much longer I love you all those I’ve known all along and th...


March 05, 2019

Take

Take what I have and give it to those who need I have no need for these useless tools when I am gone Take the heart that has loved so completely and been wounded so easily and teach the world to ...


March 05, 2019

What I Must Do

I sing because I must, not because I can For if one is given one single gift in this desolate world, surely they would be a fool not to embrace it I write because I must, not because I can For I ...


Book Description

In the dead of night when I am lying and bed and trying desperately to sleep, words flow into sentences and I can’t sleep until I write them down and they are gone. These entries are full of pain and exhaustion and I needed to share them.