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What Have I Done? Saturday, September 09, 2006 C is back in my life... and is he ever back! So he and I were talking online. It went something like this: Him: I love Michigan Me: Me t...

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OpenDiary Survey Wednesday, September 06, 2006 What does your online diary name mean, and why did you pick it? "Never again i vetem" I picked it because "i vetem" means alone. My first...

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Hidden Tuesday, September 05, 2006 My boss, Teresa, told me something that I didn't know about myself... When I was 12, I was lets just say, "hurt," by a neighbor. I was so emtionally mes...

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The Feeling Of You Monday, September 04, 2006 I am dreaming of you again. It’s such a strange feeling to have a person that hasn’t been in my life for almost ten years, to have such an infl...

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Chris Dream Tuesday, August 29, 2006 I had a dream about Chris last night. It was so real. It felt like it was really happening. He told me he was my master... and of course I was oka...

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Three Things Sunday, August 27, 2006 Madilyn is no longer with us. She lost her battle with her unknown illness at 1:32 PM on Thursday, August 24th, 2006. She was born on an unknown day...

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Chad Monday, August 14, 2006 I had a wonderful talk with Chad last night. Who's Chad? Chad is a guy I met about 8 years ago online. He was one of the first people I chatted with online...

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Firefighter, Private Number, New Fish and MORE! Thursday, August 10, 2006 Well, I suppose it's time to update this thing. I went out with the firefighter. He was alright. No wow-facto...

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Dating Thursday, August 03, 2006 You have no idea how much I lothe dating. All the smiling hurts my face muscles. The laughing at not so funny jokes. Uuuuuuuuugh. Went out on a date Sun...

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Something I Would Really Like To Know Tuesday, July 18, 2006 Anyone out there remember Keith? He's my ex that cheated on me with another girl from way back when. Well here's a situation...

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MUCH Better Mood Sunday, July 09, 2006 Oh Thank God. Michael (roommate) is on vacation for a week. I have the apartment to myself! Hurray! He left on Friday so this whole weekend all ...

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Bad Mood Wednesday, July 05, 2006 Oh my gosh. I am so ready to live by myself. Seriously! I want sooo bad to be able to do what I want to do and not have to worry about my roommate get...

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Rainbow of Things Wednesday, May 17, 2006 I guit therapy I am waiting one more year to buy a house I joined eharmony.com I may have to quit piano, but I really don't want to I am learning ...

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What This Girl Wants in Love Tuesday, April 25, 2006 Is it really better to have loved and lost, than to never have loved at all? If that is true then it's like saying it's better to hav...

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Anger Brings Out the Alcohol in Me Friday, April 21, 2006 I want to drink. I want to drink. I want to drink. I want to drink. I want to drink. I am shaking. I am so mad. I am so irrit...

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A Day After Therapy Thursday, April 20, 2006 I keep looking at the scratches on my arm from my night of drinking. I get an almost embarrassed feeling everytime I look at it. Then I fee...

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Therapy after drinking Tuesday, April 18, 2006 I had therapy today. It was interesting. I told her about my drinking and the fight I had with Steph. She explained that my feelings of je...

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Binge Drinking Almost Killed Me Saturday, April 15, 2006 I should be dead. I really don't know why I am not. For the first time ever I drank so much last night that I should have been ...

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Just One Thing Wednesday, April 12, 2006 I am suppsed to resort to this place (this diary) to get my feelings out. That's what theropy is for too. However, I have stopped doing it altoget...

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Easter is almost here Monday, April 10, 2006 I seriously can't wait for Easter. I got my old computer all cleaned up and cleaned out. Deleted sooo much! I can't believe how much junk wa...

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Madilyn-- A True Story Tuesday, April 04, 2006 Madilyn is a fish, but not just any fish. She's the office fish at my work. Today I was at work when I noticed Madilyn not swimming. Inste...

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Piano Wednesday, March 29, 2006 Well I did something interesting. At least I think it's interesting. I play the piano. I play rather well. Normally I just write the music I play. I f...

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B*tch Fest 2006 Thursday, March 23, 2006 I tell you what... If Stephenie at work doesn't stop talking about her children I am going to start banging my head against a wall until I am unc...

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Stupid Thing Wednesday, March 15, 2006 I did a stupid thing. Just like in the past, I used my dopey girly stupidity to weaken my common sense. Dang it I hate it when I do that! You see...

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Dress Shopping for the Needy Saturday, March 04, 2006 I applied for a new job. I really hope I get it. However, at the same time I am scared to death to get it. It's like nothing I hav...

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