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I may plan a trip to that bridge.

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So he got out. Felt alwesome. We were awesome… Relapse

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No need to even try to open up and share things to others about myself… I might just fucking leave if I continue to feel this way and can’t avoid it.

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I know I never have fit in and I never will… Maybe I should just cancel everyone from my life.

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That he’s done time and in rehab for the better. I’m still here broken af…

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I better have the money for my car this upcoming Thursday.

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Obsessive. Conversations I’ve had with myself months ago still ruin me. I let myself embrace these thoughts sometimes but there are time that I’m overwhelmed of or stuck in my thoughts. I can’t ...

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When he is like that, I love him and feel better about us again. He is awesome when he’s optimistic.

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For the first time now. Maybe it’s the situation I’m in atm and when I was doing it is why I’m craving it. Ugh… That video I saw on YT, from a documentary, the lady that did it, the way they film...

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I’m so annoyed that all he wants isnto get high. He can’t even be responsible enough to keep himself out of such a situation. Ugh… I already know this will wreck me big time hauling up his ass. I...

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I’m going to say it anyway. He would say “you’re looking too far into things.” Yeah well, that’s because he’s too fucking stupid. Seriously. Must be brain damage from drugs. Seriously…

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I don’t know what I do wrong. Even when I don’t accuse or even seem insecure, they still do it. I don’t know why I have to hurt or why I stayed. I wish I didn’t ignore it before. I wish I didn’t ...

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Just like energy drinks. They do nothing for me. If anything it just gives me some weird anxiety feeling in my chest and head… I’ve been doing okay but it doesn’t help that I’m still constantly a...

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I want nothing to do with anybody

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I want nothing to do with anybody

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Gets sooo RED when he blushes. Hahah! If only he knew how much I can read him. …and I thought I scream too loud when I speak my mind… Damn I wonder how much money I could earn from my posts 🤔

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Glance at your watch, constantly adjust your belt and hat. Go to the bathroom for whatever reason and for however long.

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He got upset because he caught a guy checking me out. Yet I’m standing here the whole time he is CONSTANTLY checking her out. I can understand a couple glances but seriously.... How am I suppose ...

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You have issues in a relationship. Once a certain person come around you just so happen to have attitude problems again and your gf/bf/spouse says that you’re jealous… Maybe it’s them who has a ...

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I’m gullible… I remind myself I’m stupid to do that again. I hate you…

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I wonder if he can see it in my eyes how much I want him right now… I’ll just get rejected which is why I hold off as much as I can but early he made it seem like he really wants me and we are al...

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I know I’m not what he wants or it’s just one of those cases I’m “with” someone who wants what he doesn’t have… if I don’t want to look down on myself I guess.

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I can’t even cry! I’m ready to be done with him but fuck now I’m in the middle of nowhere with nothing! I should have just beat his fucking face and left when I first thought to do it. I’m nothin...

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He obviously doesn’t think of me or purpose avoids me after work. He may not want to be in here because of his mother (I’m sure would be an excuse), but he hasn’t invited me to where ever he may ...

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Love yourself, be comfortable with yourself, etc. It sucks that no matter how comfortable I am with myself or how happy I am, all the energy that I feel drains me and all the things people may po...

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