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The Falling Sky
The pain isn’t happening when you are drunk, high, hooking up, having that affair, eating junk food, binge-watching Netflix, making that purchase, etc. We just forget that the pain is happening. ...
Be Kind, Rewind
Nostalgia is a time when you knew your place. My memory can take me right into a moment. It won’t just be pictures. I will remember the smells, the tastes, the sounds, and even my emotions. I wil...
Embers
I let myself cry today. Nothing special happened. I got emotional watching something and I surrendered myself to it. I was hoping for catharsis. Instead, all of my scars opened. What’s the opport...
Randomings
We’ve all hit our winter breaking point in my city. We hit it a long time ago. We are in the homestretch and spring cannot come fast enough. I’m tired of the freezing cold. We had a flurry last n...
First World Problems
I’m not a racist, fascist, misogynistic bigot… unless a) I’m driving. b) I contact customer support. c) I’m trolling. I’m not a good person, I’m not a bad person. I’m a whole person. However, I...
Where I'm Coming From
In case we don’t understand where I’m coming from. I used to be the person the world wanted me to be. The person I thought they wanted, I should say. Being gay is who you are. A therapist once sa...
Horror Show
The horrors persist but so do I 2024 is working my nerve. It’s first-world problems so I’ll be grateful for that much. I’m not a I got a headache kind of girl but I’ve had one most of the week. ...
My Astrology Forecast
I was doom-scrolling on TikTok and somebody mentioned the end of a karmic cycle for those with prominent Scorpio placements. The cycle started on November 4th, 2021, so we were told to remember t...
RIP Jolly Dodger
The plan was to take a month’s hiatus from Prosebox but the cosmos continues to test my nerve. The reason for the hiatus has nothing to do with anything profound. I just wanted to hide the shame ...
Breakthrough Era?
Every inch of me wants to shrink my surroundings to feel safe. At the same time, I want to be anywhere but here. I don’t even know where here is. I just feel like I need to be somewhere else. Doi...
Tune Up
Hi Tom, you big bloated bitch on Prosebox, how are ya? I need to tune in. I need to stop and reflect. I’ve been numbed out. Talk about ghosting, I feel like I am a phantom. Just sleepwalking thro...
Some Type of Way
I had a slight scare with my grandmother yesterday. I wasn’t able to get a hold of her. I told her that I would call before I left to take her shopping and because of her stroke, it was hard not ...
Oops… I did it again.
Some guy was giving me the creeps at the gym this morning. I was using the cable machine and he was just off in the corner starring at me. Maybe he’s zoned out and doesn’t realize. I figured. I g...
Wild World
Lenstar brought up something that happened in my city on Christmas day that I wasn’t following and it has been haunting me ever since. A woman was arrested at a hotel for wielding a knife. A drun...
Feeling Like Me Old Self A Little Bit
You don’t need a pronoun to tell you who you are. I was half dreaming when that thought came to me. I’m just waking up from my nap. I can make that even deeper if I had the energy. Bottom line, ...
Blurb
I feel dirty. Absolutely filthy. I called in sick today so that I can study for my exam this evening. I’ll get over it. I just hate being dishonest. I am still on the fence about taking a second ...
Up and Down
Well split my d!€# and call me Caitlyn I was in such a good mood today, I didn’t even think that was possible. Why is this happening? How can I do this again? Why can’t I just feel like this all...
Stuff and Things
I offered to take my grandmother to her church today but she wanted nothing to do with it. They have a new pastor and she just isn’t interested. She is doing fine. I called my mother yesterday to...
Dumb Ages Blues
I didn’t want to put the thought out into the universe that it felt like a bad omen when the picture fell off of my wall but something bad happened anyway. My grandmother had a stroke. She’s fine...
Randomings
My nerves are shot. My anxiety is hit or miss, I am noticing. At least it is just triggered by normal circumstances, like a test. It barely took me ten minutes to write the test today. This unit ...
Crash and Burn
I don’t think I’ve experienced burnout like this before. I am no longer just tired of being tired. I am tired of being tired of being tired. I did not sleep well the last couple of nights. I keep...
Crash and Burn
I don’t think I’ve experienced burnout like this before. I am no longer just tired of being tired. I am tired of being tired of being tired. I did not sleep well the last couple of nights. I keep...
On The Right Track But Going The Wrong Way
I am in a weird headspace. I feel lost but on track. I could be going the wrong way on this oneway track for all I know. I was consciously trying to create new habits but I relapsed a bit. Nothin...
Thinspiration
Frank made an appearance at work the other day. He is a customer who is there almost every day. I noticed his absence over the holidays. He has a very strong presence when he is in the store. He ...
Stuff and Things
I have the metacognitive skills to recognize when my mindset is shifting to the one I am trying to restructure. I know that I can be weak when it comes to my vices but I’ve let go of more vices t...
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Things happening in my life currently