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I haven’t done anything fun in a while. A long while. I can’t even remember when I last enjoyed myself. I have more access to society again, nobody is expected to wear a muzzle either. I’m just n...

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I am a heretic. A heretic is somebody that chooses to believe differently and I no longer agree to believe in the current cults. I can participate but I do not want to belong to them. We have all...

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I’m fasting today, thus I’m a little hangry. Sunday is my sacred self-care day. I call it sacred because I value time alone. I get the apartment all to myself where I get to do anything I want wi...

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I need to get around to reading the comments on my blog again. I don’t make people comfortable and in return, they make me uncomfortable. It can get exhausting polarizing with others about touchy...

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I took my mother to Jacobs Trading today. It’s an esoteric shop that sells supplies. Crystals in particular. My mother has a sudden interest in healing crystals and that is something I want to su...

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I’m just waking up, I can sense that my depression is going to come out and play today. I will surrender to it. I have to let it run its course. Suppressing symptoms will make it worse. I am payi...

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I started crying on my ride home from work today. I was reminiscing about my niece. It’s a long back story but once upon a time, I was living with my sister and her husband when they had their fi...

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I decided to do my Sunday self-care routine on Saturday morning instead. I thought that I had plans with my mother in the afternoon to check out a shop called Jacob’s Trading. I also wanted to ta...

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I did not have a good day. I was livid the whole way through my shift. It started first thing this morning after I clocked in. Yesterday I had to do a project which was super simple, though not e...

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I got out of bed at two this morning because I knew that I wasn’t going to fall back asleep. I didn’t know what to do with myself. I still don’t. All-day I have just been feeling like things are ...

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I don’t know how to make sense of the world these days, yet. The truthers have already exposed all of the crisis actors in Ukraine. We can easily piece together that Ukraine is where the majority...

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It is another weekend of attempting to not spend all of my money. This is agony but I do have control. I discovered that about myself in 2019. Fear was in control of everything. All I did with my...

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I didn’t mean to tune into World War III but a brief clip came across my feed on IG. All I can hear now is the terrified child in the background. WWIII started with the scamdemic that flopped. We...

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I decided to buy myself some whiskey. I will not make the mistake I made last time and drink the bottle in a two-week period. I triggered a detox crisis which felt like five hangovers at once. My...

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I need to catch my breath for a minute. I’m feeling a little salty because Toni told me that she works today and that turned out to be fake news. It’s not the end of the world but I hate surprise...

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I just checked the mail and I can see that I received a parking ticket. I now know that it is a contract to expand public funding and I am not obligated to contract with anybody. I did not agree ...

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It is not easy to witness what is happening. I can understand why the cable news cult commits to being ignorant and stupid. I can also see why we have a high suicide rate. Especially among childr...

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I can’t stop focusing on this information warfare again. I haven’t reached the obsessive level yet but I have the self-awareness to know that I am doing this because I don’t feel in control. This...

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My mood was toxic today. It started first thing in the morning. I didn’t want to leave the house. I just didn’t want to go to work. We are doing our spring reset which is our biggest project of t...

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I was pretty thrown off this morning. I woke up late and my whole routine was rushed. I also woke up feeling very down. I paid attention to my thoughts and it would appear that I feel lonely. Not...

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I found this week a little draining. My thoughts have been a little menacing and it is because I am tuning into politics and polarizing with the narratives again. I do this to help develop my opi...

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Just look at how superstitious this all is. This medical Taliban wears face coverings (which is self-harm), they have their rituals of cleansing their hands of demons with hand sanitizer (which i...

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After I let my body heal itself, during the last week of 2021, I have been feeling different. I wasn’t able to connect to any people, places, or things the same way. Again! I’ve had this experien...

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Last month my good mood was indestructible and I am trying to keep that momentum going. I also spoiled myself a little bit because it was my birthday month. I grew my wardrobe and I spent a lot o...

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I’m not bitter just unsweetened I’m nervous about my hair appointment tomorrow. I’m getting rid of all my length and then dying it white or sterling. I feel nervous because I always leave my hair...

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