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I can’t win. I woke up to Toni, my roommate, coughing her lungs out. She’s (tox)sick. Half of the people I invited over tonight will not come. Bruce is getting over a cold and they wouldn’t let h...

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I woke up feeling a little excited about having the day to myself, finally. I don’t have to be mindful of anyone or anything if I don’t want to. I will get a lot of this free time alone soon enou...

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I’m hiding from the shame of not studying by doing my class remotely this evening. I would catch on quickly but I don’t want that anxiety today. The course starts in half an hour. I also still ha...

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I don’t like to show pain or fear. I let it out on this blog. My heart has been feeling heavy the last few days. I suppose I had my emotions turned off. Between a TikTok creator that made me fee...

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Surprise surprise, my day yesterday was not the most productive. I did start looking online for work. There are a couple of places in my area that might be a decent fit for me. One is a supplemen...

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I am one to write down my goals but I haven’t created a New Years’ Resolution in years. I want to tackle my procrastination. My avoidance habits. They’re not toxic habits but they aren’t meant to...

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It’s the eve of a new year, this is my favourite time of year. I like being around that New Year New Me energy. I like being around those who start making those hard choices. I love seeing people...

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I kill a lot of time on here, on Prosebox. Today is the kind of day when I am reminded why I have this blog. Yesterday I got some pretty disturbing news about my sister. The one that is pregnant...

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Alright, I haven’t started any drama at work. Yesterday I learned who got the position I applied for and it was Tyson. I was the one who encouraged him to do it. He replaced Mike. They hired anot...

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After my morning coffee, yesterday, I went to task and started cleaning the apartment. My roommate, Toni, was lying on the couch watching TV while I cleaned around her. She had her head propped u...

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It feels as though the only way I am going to shake this off is if I hurt somebody else. Hurt people hurt people. My mind is fantasizing about all the ways that I could be an emotional and mental...

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My mother called me to chat. I’m always alone Christmas Eve and day, it makes her feel some type of way. It doesn’t bother me at all. I barely left my bed today. My mind needs to grieve the loss...

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Well, my roommate came home just as I was ready to start making content for the socials. She will be gone this evening so I’ll try then. I was just hoping for some daylight. I also tried to have ...

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Of course, I’m going to let it get to me that I didn’t get the position I applied for. I went to bed just after six yesterday. I woke up around 1 this morning. I was tossing and tortured so I gav...

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Yesterday, I was caught off guard by my depression. I ended some cycles and created new ones. My mind needs to grieve the loss of the old structures. I should have seen this coming. I supported t...

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I am trying to break some cycles and create new ones. Today I am resisting the urge to go out and spend money. Even though it is just groceries it does not need to happen today. Instead of scroll...

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Just as I got myself to look cute my brunch plans fell apart. Ange has a cough, and Leanne’s boyfriend is sick. Carly and I decided to call it a bust. I’m only a little bit upset. I was looking f...

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I went to work in such a bad mood this morning. I was in poor me mode. I made it a point to not make it anyone else’s problem. I was taking everything personally which is always a mistake. It mad...

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Yesterday evening, I invited Curtis over since he was in town. I haven’t seen him since 2016. It was a mistake. I remembered last second how he used to invite other people without telling me. I h...

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I’m not making a good choice right now. I’m going to commit to it anyway. I feel fatigued from my class. I work almost full-time, and my apartment feels like a second job all in itself. Plus scho...

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Resentment is not a function of anger it is a function of envy. I have resentment toward my roommate because I envy her. When she wakes up she is not concerned about the chores that need to be d...

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I’m still a salty queen about my roommate. I think bottling it up while waiting for the right opportunity to say something is not going to work. I’m just going to have to go for it and let her kn...

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Curious, I had a dream I hadn’t had in a long time. I dreamt that I lived in my childhood house with my siblings again. We were all the age we are now. I don’t remember any of the storylines. At ...

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It’s been ages since I vented on PB about how useless my roommate is around the apartment. Then about how useless she is to everyone else especially to herself. Ok, I only do it once a week if n...

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At work, Linda told me that there was something that she wanted me to see. She told me that Mike posted something on Facebook and she felt that I needed to see it. I explained to her that I wasn’...

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