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I need to retrace my thoughts, so to speak. My depression is bubbling up again. I spent the whole day looking forward to the Christmas function that my work is having tonight. I planned my weeken...

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Depression hit me hard yesterday. I could barely get out of bed. It humbled me a bit. I forgot how heavy this could get. I was imagining this weight in other people’s shoes and it gave me some pe...

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I wrote about a name that I heard over a month ago. One that I am hesitant to say out loud. It’s a beautiful name and it echoes in my mind frequently. Since then, I have been manifesting quite a ...

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Colour me triggered. I learned about the sidereal birth charts and so I checked mine out and it gives me an atrocious birth chart. Sagittarius Sun? Disgust. I don’t have the toxic optimism and wa...

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My old-school slumber party was a success on Saturday. In my previous entry, I mentioned how I got stuck between a rock and a hard place because my roommate had a bit of a cough. When I explained...

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I can’t win. I woke up to Toni, my roommate, coughing her lungs out. She’s (tox)sick. Half of the people I invited over tonight will not come. Bruce is getting over a cold and they wouldn’t let h...

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I woke up feeling a little excited about having the day to myself, finally. I don’t have to be mindful of anyone or anything if I don’t want to. I will get a lot of this free time alone soon enou...

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I’m hiding from the shame of not studying by doing my class remotely this evening. I would catch on quickly but I don’t want that anxiety today. The course starts in half an hour. I also still ha...

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I don’t like to show pain or fear. I let it out on this blog. My heart has been feeling heavy the last few days. I suppose I had my emotions turned off. Between a TikTok creator that made me fee...

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Surprise surprise, my day yesterday was not the most productive. I did start looking online for work. There are a couple of places in my area that might be a decent fit for me. One is a supplemen...

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I am one to write down my goals but I haven’t created a New Years’ Resolution in years. I want to tackle my procrastination. My avoidance habits. They’re not toxic habits but they aren’t meant to...

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It’s the eve of a new year, this is my favourite time of year. I like being around that New Year New Me energy. I like being around those who start making those hard choices. I love seeing people...

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I kill a lot of time on here, on Prosebox. Today is the kind of day when I am reminded why I have this blog. Yesterday I got some pretty disturbing news about my sister. The one that is pregnant...

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Alright, I haven’t started any drama at work. Yesterday I learned who got the position I applied for and it was Tyson. I was the one who encouraged him to do it. He replaced Mike. They hired anot...

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After my morning coffee, yesterday, I went to task and started cleaning the apartment. My roommate, Toni, was lying on the couch watching TV while I cleaned around her. She had her head propped u...

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It feels as though the only way I am going to shake this off is if I hurt somebody else. Hurt people hurt people. My mind is fantasizing about all the ways that I could be an emotional and mental...

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My mother called me to chat. I’m always alone Christmas Eve and day, it makes her feel some type of way. It doesn’t bother me at all. I barely left my bed today. My mind needs to grieve the loss...

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Well, my roommate came home just as I was ready to start making content for the socials. She will be gone this evening so I’ll try then. I was just hoping for some daylight. I also tried to have ...

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Of course, I’m going to let it get to me that I didn’t get the position I applied for. I went to bed just after six yesterday. I woke up around 1 this morning. I was tossing and tortured so I gav...

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Yesterday, I was caught off guard by my depression. I ended some cycles and created new ones. My mind needs to grieve the loss of the old structures. I should have seen this coming. I supported t...

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I am trying to break some cycles and create new ones. Today I am resisting the urge to go out and spend money. Even though it is just groceries it does not need to happen today. Instead of scroll...

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Just as I got myself to look cute my brunch plans fell apart. Ange has a cough, and Leanne’s boyfriend is sick. Carly and I decided to call it a bust. I’m only a little bit upset. I was looking f...

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I went to work in such a bad mood this morning. I was in poor me mode. I made it a point to not make it anyone else’s problem. I was taking everything personally which is always a mistake. It mad...

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Yesterday evening, I invited Curtis over since he was in town. I haven’t seen him since 2016. It was a mistake. I remembered last second how he used to invite other people without telling me. I h...

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I’m not making a good choice right now. I’m going to commit to it anyway. I feel fatigued from my class. I work almost full-time, and my apartment feels like a second job all in itself. Plus scho...

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