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When I try to reflect on the last few days everything becomes a bit of a blur. There is nothing eventful happening right now. I’ve been letting myself get lost in Skyrim which I want to take a br...

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If it doesn’t exist, it can’t leak out of a lab. $cience takes kidney cells from a monkey and then they add a “sick sample” from an “infected” person and watch the kidney cells die. They blame th...

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Thursday evening I went to see Swan Lake with Leanne. The last live show we saw was Chicago. I enjoyed the ballet. I’d never been to one. I thought it was cute to hear all of their little feet ru...

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It was a struggle to leave my bed yesterday. I felt like I had no reason to. I didn’t have the energy to do anything either. I could have done plenty of more productive things but I didn’t have i...

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Yesterday I got a call from my roommate while she was at work. She forgot to submit our lease renewal. It will just get handed in late. So it’s going to be another year of being her roommate. I d...

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I spent the whole day in bed. I even ate in bed. Nothing nutritious. I am letting myself wallow a bit. I failed at something, I’ll get over it. I could have been more productive today but I could...

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I’m usually very decisive which is why I am so tortured by this physics class. Do I stay or do I go? I was confident that I had my mind made up that I would drop this physics class because I coul...

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I’m feeling a little stunned at the moment. I decided to not attend class today. I am considering throwing in the towel altogether. It could go either way. My test is on Wednesday, I still have t...

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My mind went to a very dark place last night. Toni and I started a series called Your Honor last night. The pilot was just an endless series of unfortunate events for one of the characters and I ...

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I am trying to be mindful of what is going on in my head. It is all over the place. My emotions are all over the place as well. Actually, it’s more like my emotions are nowhere to be found. My he...

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I spent the whole day complaining about how hard my physics class is. I was telling them the funny story of how I bombed the practice questions. I felt confident enough to at least try and do the...

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Did you know that if you reduce your coffee intake to zero you will lose the little bit of joy left in this world? It’s been 35 days since I last had a cup of coffee and I am not experiencing the...

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It was nice to be back at work today after a six-day weekend. I am taking a break from my studying today. I am off tomorrow but I am back in class as well after a six-day weekend as well. I’ll st...

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In one of the 90 entries that I wrote over the last few days, I mentioned how uninspired I have been feeling. I recapped what my journey has been like since it started when I turned 30. I reminde...

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I realized the other day that this month is my seventh anniversary of quitting smoking. The end of May will be my seventh anniversary of going vegan. I quit coffee at the beginning of this month ...

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I am not cut out for a desk job. Particularly one that requires me to be on a computer all day. I can barely handle the few hours I spend studying for my physics class at my computer. I bit off m...

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I managed to win and get my head in the right space that I wanted. I spent the whole evening deep-diving the material that we have learned from my physics class. I accept that I am slow. I need t...

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I am in the bargaining stage of grief. When my mind shifts from one paradigm to another it grieves the old belief structures. I have to go through all of the stages of grief. Metacognition is not...

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I gave myself a one day breather from the academic pressure. I kept it domestic and optimized the kitchen and made some meal prep staples. My mood was pretty decent until just a few moments ago. ...

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I left my physics class today feeling defeated again. I spent 5 hours today studying the material that I missed. I started the class feeling confident because he started teaching something I acc...

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I feel a little better about my physics class now that I remember about Khan academy. It’s a great resource. I stumbled upon it on accident while looking for a simple definition and it brought me...

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Yesterday, I had a pretty decent day at work. I don’t usually have bad days but yesterday was fun. I was paired with Adam, he and I have the biggest personalities on the team and we were matching...

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I knew today that I was going to struggle in my physics class. I didn’t struggle too hard but I was very intimidated. I missed the last class which was our second class where we started the unit....

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‘Tis the season for seasonal depression. It isn’t soul-crushing but it makes it hard to be motivated. Last night, I had a movie night with my niece and nephew. Then my sister and I watched Wild ...

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Why does my subconscious torture me? I had one of the worst dreams of my life. I love waking up disturbed and haunted, not! I dreamt that I was coming to terms with the loss of both of my sisters...

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