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depression and. well actually i feel better tonight. but depression and.
this is actually from Mon.: ‘ yeah so like i said. i feel better tonight more awake. [i know i feel awake, at night.]. it was cold today in the 30’s. um. For the past. ever since like last Wed. i...
been a wk.
well. it’s been a wk. since stevie was sent to.the great doghouse in the sky. a little longer actually.
so. elephants.
so. elephants. so elephants. one of the reasons i love them is cause they understand mourning. i’ve heard that the entire herd gathers, around their fallen friend. and i’ve also read about cross-...
a lot like Pat.
a lot like Pat. he was.a lot like Pat. stevie that is. he stevie was thoughtful and helpful and funyn. and sweet and so loved. so loved. oh wow.
he trusted us.
he trusted us. stevie. not every dog trusts every person. if he hadn’t he wouldn’t’ve been as content as he was. he was so good. so good.
he was in my dream.
my mom’s dog. it was weird. not that he was in my dream but the dream itself. we were in the living rm. and he was to my left all curled up. maybe that means he’s ok up there.
free and i don't know
now. we don’t have to worry about stevie suddenly not being w/ us when we go on vacation. bc he’s not.
he was usually so content.
so my mom’s dog. mr. stevie. he was usually so content. sure every few months he’d get sick. but that was every few months. so on.......sun. he wasn’t doing well. so looking back that’s when we k...
stevie's w/ the moon now.
or wherever it is creatures go. like i said everyone has their own belief system. [or. some people don’t actually.]. no um. so my mom speaks spanish as do i but please don’t ask me to. and she wa...
so every wk. unless it snows a huge amount or something. i’ve gone to my mom’s. and one of the main reasons i did was to see mr. mr. stevie my mom’s dog. and now. i don’t want to go there bc he’s...
she's got you.
[i love patsy cline by the way.]. only thing different only thing new. yeah but sometimes. that one thing is a pretty big thing.
and i'm not even a big dog person.
but that dog. i loved that dog. he was very sweet. and he was so soft very soft. mellow guy. so he was like a cat basically but more loving. [not that cats aren’t loving. we just haven’t had one ...
theology.
i know everyone has their own belief system. [or actually some people don’t and that’s fine. i was an atheist at one point in time. and it was a dark time for me. so after that. i didn’t want tha...
how i'm doing
um i don’t know. how the fuk am i supposed to be doing. i’m like. i don’t know. i’m angry. like i want to destroy something. and like. i’m missing him. my mom’s dog.......he’s the being i want to...
is was.
i keep thinking of him in terms of ‘is’. or like. in terms of him still being here. like he likes nature. not like’d’].
um.
i know everyone thinks their dog/cat/lizard/other is. the best in the world but he........he came pretty close. the only problem we had w/ him in his later yrs. is that he didn’t like new people....
dogs don't ask for a thing. and devotion.
dogs don’t ask for a thing. cats do. [i love cats.]. ya know w/ dogs it’s.......they don’t have this whole list of how they want their person to be they just have one thing. as long as people are...
only to wake up in the morning and find out. oh........
so when i’m at my mom’s when i wake up after i get out of bed and all that i say hi to stevie. i’m so used to him being.there and i didn’t realise how much a big part of our my life he was untill...
so. it’s weird. we knew it was coming that. my mom’s dog would [his name’s stevie by the way] go to. the great doghouse in the sk sky eventually i just didn’t know that eventually would come so s...
cheers/loss up there.
so usually when i make hot choc. at my mom i.well i ‘cheers’ to whoever. but this morning [it was 1 a.m.] i cheere-ed, to my mom’s dog. i hope there are apples, wherever he is. he loved apples. a...
in memoriam/the great doghouse in the sky/where it actually happened
so while i was at my park um.yesterday i had my own little in memoriam thing. i raised my bottle of chai to my mom’s dog. where it actually happened. well he was.um sent.........to the great dogh...
the great doghouse in the sky/my park
so like i’ve mentioned. i wasn’t at the scene when.my mom’s dog went to.the great doghouse in the sky. i was at my park actually where i would’ve wanted to be. he was um.he was sent at 4 p.m. wel...
great doghouse in the sky.
so like i’d mentioned. my mom’s dog was sent to the great doghouse in the sky mon. er i mean yesterday. by the vet. i wasn’t there at the scene i didn’t want to be. er. i mean mon.
well it happened. the great doghouse in the sky.
well it happened. my mom’s dog went to the great doghouse in the sky yesterday. [mon.].
from the 15th - 21st
well from the 15th - the 18th i was in london. got back the 18th. the 19th - 21st i went out.
