Shameless in 2021

Okay, so before anything else I MUST address the ending to Shameless! Spoiler alert

I knew Frank was going to die. I tried preparing myself for it, but omg, I still cried like a baby. And yes, I realize that they tried to make it somewhat funny. It was just so sad, lol. I think the fact that he has always reminded me of my father made me especially emotional. Like his character was 80% my own father in a lot of weirdly specific ways and I guess I kind of projected that idea onto the character of Frank Gallagher. Lol, whatever.
It’s a damn show for fuck’s sake. Get a grip, Ash.

Anyway, I’ve been doing well. I found out in February that I had some liver damage. I’m only 27 so that was obviously very alarming. But I was truly drinking heavily and it was getting out of hand and I’m so glad that I found out because I haven’t had a sip of alcohol since three days before I found out.
I’m super happy not having any alcohol. I never thought I could be an alcoholic even though SO many people in my family are alcoholics, including my parents. I feel like COVID played a part in how much I was consuming, but it’s my own addictive personality that let it get to the point that it had.
I’m living a much healthier lifestyle NOW so that’s all that matters.

I’m going to write more later. My laptop is dying! :(