Dear OD,
I'll Miss You.
Love,
Virty
I guess this is more like starting fresh than over. I'm 29, adopted, married, no human children only the feline (3) and canine (2) kind. I've become a smoker, bout 5 years now. Pack a day. I didn't finish college.... yet. I have my AA in Accounting. When I was younger I was overly emotional, depressed and suicidal. Now... I'm emotional but in a different way, deal with depression and find fun where/when i can. I used to write poetry and short stories... they seemed to come easy with the weird state of mind I felt. Now, I'm not experiencing the strong lasting emotions that encouraged me to find refuge in writing.
I always dreamed I'd be a famous writer some day. Maybe that'll happen.
Life has a funny way of creeping up on people. I got married about 5 and half years ago and things were crazy. After a couple of years my husband's father passed away from a brain tumor. Life became very uncertain and turbulent. For a few months we did not live together and I thought we were going to get divorced. My husband quit his job. He moved back and we started mending the relationship as well as our individual sanity. That experience made me realize that I don't need to put up with bullshit and that I can move on if needed. I love him, but I don't need him. I feel like all that pain deadened the romantic in me, the part that believes people have soul mates.
I got a job working in accounts payable for a good company as my first position in 'my field'. I didn't love it, but it was pretty cool to get onto my career path. The company shut it's doors with a two week notice. The job had only given me a little over a year and a half of experience. I was unemployed for about a year. It was stressful being a two person five pet family on one person's unemployment and what was left of an inheritance. Hubby was going to school part time, I was looking for work. I almost took a minimum wage job but then my hard work paid off and I found a job in my field. An Accounting Admin Assistant for a baseball/softball equipment retailer. This job is pretty amazing for me. I'm doing AP/AR, learning purchasing, helping in all parts of the business when needed. Learning so much more than I thought I would be able to because I'm still so fresh in the field.
Right before I learned that my old job was ceasing I found out that my mom had lung cancer. She had the lung removed and went through chemotherapy. We are very lucky to be able to say that she is doing well. It is unfortunate that my god mother passed away shortly after my mom's chemo due to pancreatic cancer. Cancer is everywhere and of course I hate it. My birth mother and sister have both had skin cancer but caught the problem early enough. Health is a weird thing, after all it is a part of life. Hubby has bad back problems even though he is young. I have HPV and had a procedure to get rid of the irregular cells that formed about 7 years ago. They say that HPV can go away on it's own, but it still shows up for me and causes worries.
The best thing to have happened to me in the last few years is my current job. I have a lot of negative things to say, but all in all I truly feel much more emotionally stable and secure than I have in the past. I used to take meds for depression and anxiety but they cause bad side effects, so I've just learned to do what I can. Anxiety is the worst, as I am sure a lot of people can relate. It hits so hard and I can't really seem to get a handle on it. It happens a lot for no good reason and the tiniest things can trigger it.
Hubby got a job a couple of weeks ago in data processing. It's not a great job, but it's a job and he's not serving (which we both did for too long). I'm happy to know that we will have two incomes. The issue I have with it is his schedule. We are almost on completely opposite timing. It's rough and we do not get to see each other much. I do not like it at all. I have a lot more time to do things at home, but it's usually after I get off work and that means I'm exhausted ( it is baseball season ). But I'm trying to find things to do to occupy my mind. I do small chores, knit, read, play those addicting phone games I keep finding (mainly strategy, CCG types). But today I decided to start this diary.
I found out that OD had closed... that was my best friend for so many many years. It also helped me make one of my longest running friendships! I guess those chronicles are only in my memories now. I never did take the time to download everything.
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