Today, even though I slept horribly, my mind feels more clear, even at ease. Not to be mistaken for having less swirling around up there. After having a few days to think, sort out a few goals, I’ve decided letting the second job go is best. After such a short while, I feel bad I even inconvenienced them. Shifting all my free time to finishing these certifications seems best. After all, I have paid for it for the past year. The little extra cash from the part time gig would be nice, but I’m great at penny pinching. So I’ll have to make due…
The path to a daily routine is…in progress…
Decent sleep, fresh coffee after walking the dogs, over an hour of studying, just need to get breakfast together and hit the gym and the morning will be complete.
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I miss her, like someone missing a lung. I miss her so much, even the smallest annoying things I miss. The way she would wake me in the middle of the night when she’d talk in her sleep, her “gang banging” as I called it, kissing me three thousand times even though I’m not overly affectionate, knowing it irritated my soul. None the less, going it with a smile, and that giggle, the one that always got her, her way.
She made the best PB sandwiches…more PB then jelly because I dont like it to sweet.
Yet again, tears stream down my cheeks, I feel empty, other then the knife in my throat....
I don’t ever want to forget her, or how i feel to change…but, I do wish this, this feeling would go away....
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