I am still looking outward for satisfaction. Still waiting for a perfect outside force to come in and save me, free me, contain me simultaneously. I am feeling the pull of motion more strongly than ever, when I'm not running on high, I crash to sleep.
When I asses from the outside, I have everything. A job I love and excel at, a beautiful apartment, a fun and supportive family, some fantastic female friends. I am in excellent health and shape, with thick hair and fair skin, and straight teeth.
But I live in constant fear that I am not doing it right.
That Joe isn't good enough, so I meet Gordie. Then Gordie bails on me so I cling to Erin. Check my phone every two minutes.
Can't relax because it scares me.
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