A Few in General
- Oct. 14, 2019, 10:03 a.m.
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I have a few minutes. I need to head over to my PCP to get some Hep shots, and maybe a flu shot. I’m going in gym clothes. Because then all I have to do is strip off my hoodie and then they can stick me as many times as they need to.
Then water at Shaw’s. I’ve decided against taking my zero water and water bottles. I am just going to stock up on Dasani and replace them in the cooler as I make my way south.
I am going through a depressive episode here. Circumstances and October Maine weather are getting the better of me. I am chomping at the bit to hit the road.
Don’t get me wrong, Maine is the prettiest place on the planet. Coastal Maine is just coming into full foliage. Completely spectacular. When the sun is shining. Which lately is every three or four days.
Sometimes I wonder if the adrenaline junkie me didn’t burn out all the happy juice I have. That time in the range in south Texas. Tails and me. We both knew we were terminal. What jackass put us together. We did every. Single. Prohibited. Maneuver. Laughing the whole time. Our flight surgeon was in the back seat puking his guts out the whole time. We felt bad about that for about a minute.
Sometimes I ponder. How can being shot at, to realize somebody is trying to kill you. How can not affect the person you are.
Like everything else in Naval Aviation, we laughed it off then shivered in our racks. Unable to get warm because the adrenaline wasn’t there anymore.
Last updated October 14, 2019
Jinn ⋅ October 14, 2019
I think you are right. The threat, the risk, the need to not care , put an incredible wear on your body and your psyche at the time and then after, even years after , you come down . You have had a lot of stresses just in the time I have read your journal. Betrayal, divorce , separation from your son, caretaking your daughter , the house issues, lost love, moving, changing careers , school, health issues, and now the suicide of a close friend. That would wear on anyone. I am sure I only realize part of what you have been through. All in all you are pretty resilient and motivated to live your life well and keep going. That will save you ! Take big doses of D3 and have a great trip ! I look forward to you writing about it !
gattaca ⋅ October 15, 2019
When I travel in the car, I pick up a 24-pak of water at the Safeway, as well as trail mix, protein bars/shakes and string cheese. That's de rigueur for a week on the road.
Duke gattaca ⋅ October 15, 2019
Oh! Trail mix! I didn't think of that!