Shatter my heart in My Lonely Corner

Thanks dad for making fun of me, for cackling at my expense with purely malicious intent. I hope it brought you joy. Thanks dad for already knowing everything about the little girl that only ever wanted to get to know you. Thanks for keeping my heart so broken from you it’s terrified to come near you for fear my feelings will spill out my mouth causing you anger in defense and self righteousness that I allow you to keep because I wouldn’t want you to exert yourself and die of a heart attack. Also, thanks mom for guilting me into that almost 10 years ago. Thanks for teaching me how to bury it all instead of confront my problems. I’m so grateful I now make excuses for the actions of others around me, and allow them to treat me poorly with my approval. Don’t worry though because I’m real with my kids. I make fun with them. I teach them to value themselves and stand up for themselves and that their feelings do matter. I spend my time trying to get to know them, not who I’ve decided they are. Also, I’ll still be over this weekend to help you with your yard sale, smiling and bearing it the whole while. Love always, the daughter you should have gotten to know.