A mess. in Submissive diary.

I am a mess. I have no idea what’s wrong. My brain is going a million miles per hour about everything. I wanna crawl out of my skin. I wanna do stupid things to let the feelings out. I wanna do things to let the feelings IN. Am I feeling too much? Am I not feeling enough? Feeling all the wrong things....? Like I’m free falling off a cliff but I won’t even open my parachute to save myself because I need the exhilaration. Is someone gonna catch me? Will I hit the ground and reset like a video game back to the beginning when I felt normal?