I’m Done With Life in Married Life

I can’t do this anymore. I cannot handle being called a burden and worthless every single day. The thing is, he calls me all these things and I know it’s true. I can’t drive so I have to rely on help from him and my parents and friends to take me places. So it’s not like I’m only a burden on him, I’m a burden on everyone. My life has been a waste of 23 years, I’ve literally accomplished nothing. I’m a waste of space and I get no joy out of living anymore. Every day I wake up and wonder how I’ll disappoint my husband that day. I want to kill myself so badly, but I’m afraid to since I’m religious and I’m afraid of what afterlife would await me after that. I’m praying to God begging Him not to be mad at me if I choose to end this suffering. I know without a doubt that everyone in my life would be better off without me. I’m just a burden.