So update with the new boyfriend. Had the "Meet the folks dinner." It went well, they were nice and funny. I was polite and actually talked (thought i wouldnt being so nervous and all). But what kind of strikes me odd is how passive i feel about it all. After we went home I didnt really feel like i accomplished much(was i even supposed to feel that way). It kinda feels like you building yourself up for a fantastic rollercoaster ride, then when its over saying "That was it?"--im a strange one.
I think what was kinda weird were the questions they asked. I was expecting the "Well how did you two meet, what did you do on your first date?" But the questions were more like "Where did you graduate from, oh no masters?-Why?" More of a is she credible? It was kinda odd. Maybe its just me. So it was him, his mom, his step dad, grandma and the 2 sisters. After we ate we played a board game (odd). But okay i went along with it. It was apples to apples. It was fun. Then we left. Like I said a fine night. I just thought......i would feel more.
Anyways he seems to want to be in contact with me constantly. Text, calls me on his lunch and all breaks. I mean i get it....he loves me......but whew.....give me a little time here kid. I love the guy madly........scratch that....im infatuated i think more than love. But, i do yearn for his company time and time again. I just feel......in the back of my mind......somehing is off. Obviously it was rushed.....but......something else. The feeling is always there, the night we left his parents house.......the night he told me loved me........its like im watching someone else say and do these things. Im not present. Like im going with the motions and not feeling them. I dont know how to explain it.
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