I'm on like fifty thousand medications right now so I guess that's why it hasn't started yet. sigh I was starting to freak out, but luckily I had a doctor appointment today and asked for a test. It was a follow up to the new bc I got on, as well as the new acne medication spironodalctone, or whatever it's called. Which works GREAT by the by. I have dealt with hormonal adult acne since I was 19. I've tried to all: antibiotics, birth control, differing gel, retin-a, you name it. This has been the only thing that has worked. It's been one month and my face is crystal clear. Numerous times I've been complimented on my skin "glowing" (which freaked me out and then I thought I was preggo eek). Anyways, it was also a follow up for my knee since it's kept me out of the gym for almost two months now. Still no improvements. She gave me a new steroid to try and if it doesn't improve in a week then they'll refer me to an orthopedist. I really don't want to have surgery or anything like that, I'm still hoping it will fix itself. I miss being able to go to spin class and doing squats!
So anyways, while I was there I asked about the fat burner shots they have. Cue pregnancy test. Which was negative. phew Then I got a random b12 shot. I doubt it'll do anything, I'm not an advocate for trendy weight loss crap, but since I can't work out I'm desperate. And it was only $35 so I said what the hell. She also prescribed me adapex aka diet pills. Again, don't really believe in this type of things, but I'm willing to try.
Okay so about the Bradley thing. So he had his body building competition the weekend of our blow out fight (see last entry). We were supposed to drive down to Clearwater that Friday but I was NOT going to go. So he went and then I felt really guilty that he would be going through the competition without any support. So on Saturday I drove 4 hours to Clearwater and surprised him at the show. He literally cried when he saw me. After the show we ate a place right on the beach then drove to my brother's house in Tampa and spent the night there. It ended up being a good weekend, but that dark cloud was looming over our heads. We've talked and talked and talked. We've tried to carry on as a couple but last night I guess we mutually decided to do a "trial separation." Which is really weird to me. He said no matter what he would still be there for Cassidy and will always be her dad. Which is my number one biggest concern. I could probably figure out a way to live without him, but Cassidy deserves to have her dad even if we couldn't make this work.
I haven't had my wedding ring on in like two weeks. Which is a weird feeling. I don't want anyone else. but I think the space is good. Maybe give us the time we need to figure out which route we need to take. whether it's together or separate.
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