So first off, happy Thursday! I always call it Friday Eve :)
You will notice through my post of how up and down my moods and emotions are. For example, the post last night had a depressing feeling while right now I am totally in a bouncy mood. This is mainly why I wanted to find an anonymous diary… I want to keep track of this and have something to refer to if I ever get an appointment for a psychiatrist (been waiting a year so far since the assessment over the phone.
I woke up okay today after 10 days of PMDD and relationship bs. No tightness in chest, barely any anxiety… woooooo! That’s the shit that rainbows are made of in my life LOL!
I kissed my bf goodbye like everyday and I said to him “I just want you to notice I am here, I want you to look at me and see me”. He is so busy with his business and always face and eyes into his mobile phone… Fuck cell phones for becoming so addictive (I am not innocent myself). He replied and said “I dont look at anyone.” This is so true but I replied with “I should be an exception, I wish you could just try.” Once he told me he is trying, I was satisfied with that. Trying is enough for me because I always hope that others see the struggle I have with trying my best to control my emotions and irritability.
Might pop by tonight to tell you how my day was :)
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