Well, I'm in Cork in Ireland. The hotel room isn't too bad. Certainly not the worst I've stayed in. The place has a pool and there are rumours of a jacuzzi. I've started watching season four of The Walking Dead. I do love my zombie shows.
I feel better about being here. Still emotionally distant but less so. Tomorrow I'll be up to my neck in the thick of things which is just the way I like it. Tonight though. Tonight I will relax. I've done some exercises. Probably not enough to pay off the delicious burger I had for tea but enough that a few muscles were poking through the fat. It's a start.
At heart I think I'm a bizarre mix of the practical and the emotional. I'd like to consider myself an emotionally in tune person but I fight against that with logic. I'd like to think I deal with problems in an inherently practical way but I get stressed about it. This can go one of two ways. Either I get maudlin and do nothing or I get enthusiastic and sort shit out. Today I'm feeling the swing back from the first towards the second. This time it seems to be without any of the emotional withdrawal that usually accompanies it. I feel glad for this. Much as I occasionally hate how I feel I'd far rather that than nothing.
So, yeah. Good place today. Let's hope I'm even better tomorrow. Fingers crossed. Ramblerambleramble.
Addendum: Looking back at my old entries I've noticed I used to sign them. Not even sure when I stopped doing that. Just for old times sake then...
the Boiling Man
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