Excited and sad in Trying this out

So I'm laid in bed not wanting to fall asleep because when I wake up my baby will be 2 years old! How can I be as excited as I am yet be feeling sad. The days just seem to slip away... I don't want Dante to grow up! I vow that from now on ill be making every single day count. They won't slip away! They will become wonderful memory's that I'll treasure forever. I feel like I've wasted too many days in our life for some strange reason but this will change. We will become more active. Go out places, see and do as much as we can! I love my boy more then I ever imagined I could. He's perfect even on his bad days lol. Tomorrow will be a sad/happy day for me. It will be one of those proud mummy moments - The ones where I see all the family coming to share his day with him. Every smile I helped create, every laugh I helped create. <3 I could burst from the amount of pride and love my boy gives me! My life is worth something. Everything xx