I wrote an entry directed at my ex about 2 weeks ago on OD. Normally he checks in on my diary like twice a week, and it's been a mixed blessing to know that he was still there, even if I couldn't actually talk to him. That entry referenced that someone in his house spent 2 and a half hours going through every one of my public entries, and I wondered why (I mentioned it in an earlier note here as well).
Now, I have been tracking his movements on my diary for the past 2 years, and I know which ones are his... and I'm pretty sure that it was his wife that spent all that time. And either me saying I was still watching him, or the knowledge that his wife was reading every moment in the last 2 years that he's lied to her about freaked him out enough so that he hasn't been back on since.
What scared the hell out of me was that the shutdown of OD was announced the day AFTER he was on, and he was unaware that our last connection was coming to a close. I have been praying for the past 12 days that he'd come online just long enough to see where I'd moved my diary to... and he never did.
And now I have lost the last tiny bit of contact we had, and I feel like I can't breathe...
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