A silent conversation in Daily Deliberation

Devil (on shoulder): Would you exchange six years for one piece of knowledge?
My Sanity: No way. I am happy.
Devil: Are you sure? Remember how things were? Remember the things you felt?
Sanity: Oh, yes. I remember them clearly. I remember them so clearly in fact my heart still jumps at the thought. It’s still not worth the trade.
Devil: But why? Why is it not worth the trade?
Sanity: Because I am happy. Why should I exchange my happy for something that may not provide the same happiness?
Devil: What if it provides the same happiness but more?
Sanity: If that were true, it never would have ended in the first place.
Devil: Then why do you keep thinking about it?
Sanity: That’s what I do; I think and overthink. It doesn’t mean anything.
Devil: Is that why you check their social media discreetly? Because it doesn’t mean anything.
Sanity: I blame it on curiosity.
Devil: Curiosity killed the cat.
Sanity: That cat must have crossed the line. Curiosity didn’t kill it. It’s own lack of self-restraint did.
Devil: So you’re restraining yourself from being too curious?
Sanity: I know what’s enough. I’m happy.
Devil: You keep saying that as if you believe it.
Sanity: I am happy.
Devil: Are you really? I have a hard time believing what you say.
Sanity: Here are the facts: I had three months of happy and now I have six years of happy. There’s not much to compare.
Devil: Three months of happy versus six years of happy. I can see your logic. I have one last question for you if I may.
Sanity: One last question.
Devil: The three months of happy have been over for nearly a decade, and yet you still think of them. What do you think that means?
Sanity: I don’t know.