a year later. in oh, hello.

So it's been a year today since C and I last slept together. Obviously things kept going between us online for a few extra months.. But the last time I was with him, happier than I'd been in months, was exactly a year ago. It upsets me thinking about it, since he threw everything down the drain. I haven't spoken to him since I was last in the UK in September last year. He has a new gf now but I have no idea of anything that goes on in his life. He deleted then blocked me on everything when he decided that apparently I had done something wrong. Search me if I know what it was. I just dread the day I have to see him again at Sarah's wedding. Luckily she has said that the new gf will not be invited. However, it is still going to be extremely hard to see him. At this stage I'll not be making any effort to be any where near him or speak to him. I have no interest in being friends with or even nice to him. He threw that chance away. I also have to deal with Michael being there. Two ex's at one wedding!! Fml! Hopefully he keeps his distance too. No matter how much I ever wanted it, I doubt he and I will ever be friends again. He has made it perfectly clear that he hates me and wishes I was dead.. Anyways.. So yeah it's been a year and I'm kind of sick of being single and alone.. Though I'm far from wanting to actually be with someone. I'm not stupid enough to fall for that again! Lol! It would be nice to have a cuddle buddy once in a while though. There's no real point to this entry.. Just getting my thoughts out of my head so I might be able to have a peaceful sleep tonight. It's been a while for that too.. -.- lovelove xx