If you have been reading and following along with my entries, you’ll know at this point I’ve been waiting to find out what is going on with J. Well, friends and strangers alike, I have decided to part ways with him. He is not the Dom for me afterall! My mentor, F, and a friend Dom (D) talked with me at length. As well as conversations with V… she’s a domme.
So, according to all 3 of them, I did nothing wrong! He abandoned me in the early days of a relationship. He drove me to utter frustration, made me think he left and I snapped. Unable to control myself and nothing to stop me, I went on a sex bender!
Well guys, that bender is the reason you are even reading any of this! … It’s also the reason you will continue to see entries from me.
The plan from here out:
Goal 1: Have an orgasm through sex with a man.
Plan - Have sex with random people until I find someone who makes me orgasm.
Scenario 1: Orgasm happens from a completely random person, no or little BDSM/Kink
Scenario 2: Orgasm happens from a Dom or Master (and is compatible) —> Skip Goal 2, Go Directly to Goal 3.
Goal 2: Have a Friends with Benefits that CAN make me orgasm.
Plan - Meet and have sex with FWB while looking for a Dom or Master.
Goal 3: Become a submissive of a Dom or Master.
Plan - …really? Isn’t this self explanatory? Yes, people. Yes it is.
*as an aside, I must give credit where credit is due. M and C talked with me through Tuesday night about everything with J and all the experiences written here. They also helped me to decide and figure out that I needed to step away from him. Thanks guys!!
P.S. In case you are wondering: I did not sleep with S or the Whisper guy I planned to meet up with later Tuesday afternoon.
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