1/20/2014
Last night I got heart breaking news. You know my life has never been that easy but Ive always tried my hardest to take the high road and think positive. Sure ive been threw a lot in the short amount of time Ive lived on the earth. All my experiences make me the person I am today. Soon to much bad in life starts to really get you down. Pill after pill started to slid down my throat. Trevelyn went back to his ex and I was left with no one yet again. After you have lost everyone and you have nothing else to give you start asking yourself what do I have to lose? And why am I so alone? I have never felt more alone in my life until last night. Losing count after 30 pills I started asking myself if this was what I really wanted. I drifted to sleep not expecting to wake up the next morning. Obviously I did awake, and it felt like I was being stabbed in the stomach finally puking up blood for hours I regained the right state of mind. I was in complete shock I tried to take my own life. So ashamed and guilty what about the few people left in my life that would have been heart broken?
After a long day of recovery Ive had hours to sit around and think. I decided to take a break from cosmetology school and relocate myself to another state. Some might say I am running from the past, but that is not the way I see it. I am running to find myself, to find happiness, to find everything I have been missing. I need new people, places, and things. To travel is life and I need to start living.
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