anxiety always is such a motivator. this site, prosebox, has an active community. i had not realized this. i decided to online journal out of a sudden inspiration. i found this, and wanted to write immediately; no time was taken to search for the actual purpose of this site. so far, i dont see one other than to just share yourself– so that is what i will do.
this realization of this site actually having an active community shot a shock of anxiety through my stomach, deep within, as it always does. a soft, gut-wrenching sensation that i know far, far too well. this is a good time to share that i have anxiety then, i suppose. my anxiety is an absolute normality, so i have done so much refinement of character and demeanor to minimize its triggering to a manageable level. one of my favorite accomplishments.
before i end this, i’d like to explain my entry system. it will be numbered up… nothing fancy. for gods sake… again, i find myself trying to justify me doing this online typing montage by explaining what my fucking entry titles signify.
read my thoughts or don’t. to the community out there, i may be far too nervous to interact with you– like ever. i apologize. that is just how i am.
this is just an insiders look on the thoughts of a 20 year old college student with thousands of thoughts, opinions, and things you might just want to read, i don’t know.
god i hope i’m doing this right.
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