Venom in Venom

The way you sneak in and creep up into my veins,
The tiny hairs you make stand up all down my spine,
The lump in the back of my throat that starts to swell,
The twitch in my eye,
The hammering of my pounding heart,
The cold sweaty palms that scrape against the earth,
The pounding in my head that could be heard from a tiny insect,
The electricity bolt of rage and fear running through my body,
It’s the way you whisper my name....
I turn around to run but i can hear you screaming for me.
This place is so cold and so dark.
I’m so scared. I can’t feel a thing… but yet, i can feel everything.
Am I going to live through this? what if it takes me?
It’s becoming thicker now, the darkness… all around me.
I feel it tighten around my throat....
I gasp and grasp for my relief....
I swallow my serenity…
but only for a little while.
The thud starts to dissipate…
I can barely here you calling me now.
My body starts to go numb…
I can’t remember who I was before.
Or how i got this way…
The serenity enters into my bloodstream…
If only just for a little while,
my veins swallow it whole making it run like a stream…
it’s glorifying …
but the fear is still there…
the venom will come back…
and it will start again.
I don’t know how to win this battle.
No one can see the fight.
It’s hidden deep down, almost beneath the earth.
It shows itself in the shadows…
sometimes you can almost feel it…
and sometimes it will whisper your name.
My anxiety knows my name…
And it always calls for me.
It has a tight grasp and wont let go,
sometimes I can swallow it to sleep....
but the venom will always awaken inside of me.
It feeds off of the poison that enters into my body.
and my body lives off of the poison.
But if I don’t have my poison, my body will rot from the venom.