Hi Brother,
I’m sorry I haven’t written for a while. I had some studying to do. You know how I was in the hospital about a month ago. Well I’d missed two of my exams and I have to make them up this week. I also have a couple papers that I am procrastinating. I know I should be working on them everyday, but I’m just way too tired. I’m still getting used to my new classes and I nearly had a panic attack on Sunday. You know how bad they can get and I really did not want to break down in front of my friends. Only you can see me that way. I say only you because you can protect me. I’m like an open wound and everything hurts, so it only takes something small to push me over the edge. But you always made sure that didn’t happen. I miss you.
I haven’t talked to the babies in a long time. I blocked The Asshole and Her on my phone. My mom told me that I don’t have to talk to him if he makes things worse and I blocked Her because you know that he’ll use her to get to me. I even had to block Grandma and Grandpa. I won’t be talking to them for a while. I’ll miss them but The Asshole will use and manipulate them in order to get to me and i can’t handle that right now. I still need to fix myself so that I can be there for the babies. The babies are all that matter right now. I hope you understand. I know I was left to take care of them since you left. I’m doing this for them and like you did for us, I have to make sacrifices so that I can properly care for them and be the best example I can.
I have to go now. I love you Brother. I hope you are okay. I wouldn’t want anything to happen to you. You give me the strength I need to keep going. I’ll write again soon okay? I love you.
Love, Lil Sis
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