They told me that it was my ex boyfriend who was the second man involved. He did it too. I’m still trying to accept it, I don’t know if I even believe it.. there’s no way he would do that to me .. I remember telling the prosecuting attorney that I don’t think he would do that, I said “sure he’s not the best guy but he wouldn’t rape me.”
The prosecuting attorney told me that proof doesn’t lie.. forensics don’t lie. He did do it.
How do you accept that the person you love and trust would do that to you… how do you overcome and grow from that? Cause I’m still trying to figure it out.
I used to think people were good. I thought they were like me, and it took me up until this experinece to realize they are not like me, not at all. Most people are evil.
So I’ve been at my moms in the middle of nowhere. I’ve been spending time with my dog, going on hikes, and doing whatever I feel is good for my soul. I am starting to feel better.
They say you can’t run away from your problems .. but I did, and it’s helping.
I’m proud of myself today.
I’m glad I quit my toxic job, I’m glad I dropped absolutely everything and walked away from all responsibility. If I didn’t, I don’t know if I’d be here anymore.
Sometimes I think that’s all we need, a moment standing still in the woods, nothing but the sound of the tree leaves moving in the sky above me.
Maybe it’s just today I’m feeling so ambitious to heal but atleast that’s a step in the right direction.
I know it will take time.
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