1:30 in lalaland

Well it’s now 1:30am. Will I ever sleep? I have awful insomnia and sleep apnea. I hate insomnia. I don’t understand how one day I can sleep for 3 hours (from 6-9) and not fall asleep until 2:30am. Then I usually am up from 4:30ish until maybe 6:00am then may go back to sleep from 6:00-7:30 or 8:00. So a total of 7 to 8 hours but not quality REM sleep. But, today I did not lay down later in the afternoon and I am still wide awake. I feel exhausted and all I want to do is sleep. On top of it all my hubby can sleep all he wants and sleeps like a baby. It makes no sense to me. I am convinced that my body hates me. I guess I will just have to try to sleep when ever my body lets me.
Oh, it may not help that the cats feel the need to sleep on top of my chest or knead my neck to death. Anyways, going to try to get some sleep again. Well, wish me luck.