Ive never been very good at organising my writing but here i go. in My story

As some of you may read that’s if anyone does read this it is nearly 1 o’clock on the morning and I am still up trying to switch my head off from all the negative thoughts. I am a young women that in my experience has had a nasty start I believe. It isn’t a story where I say I’ve had a bad childhood because I haven’t that part of my life was fine it was when I started to get older and develop into a teenager I started struggling with life. As a young teenager all you want to do is fit in with everyone at school have the best clothes shoes brand new phone, the same as all my school mated but I was never that lucky to be able to get that so I’m guessing I never really did fit in which to be honest by me didn’t really bother me as I never fitted in much because I was different from my class mates as I never had a dad and still don’t so I’ve always been different.
Anyways like a normal teenager you would go out with your mates all summer and then go back to school, this is where things went wrong for me I was walking to school and a girl that I hung around with that summers came up to me and was being friendly being nice saying hey you ok And I just snapped not sure why I snapped and just told her to f*ck off which I no I shouldn’t of. That is where i went wrong because after that she turned nasty against me, I tried to apologise and she just ignored that and continued to turn everyone against me by the way I was in year 7 and we hadn’t long been at the school I didn’t make many friends when we first went to high school I just clung to the people from my primary school.
She continued to turn my friend against me by spreading nasty rumours about me saying I was cheating on my boyfriend which causes rows in school. Due to all of this going on I was out of class a lot which made things worse to make friends, i used to sit in a small room with a support worker to sit and do my class work. This used to happen quite a lot because I was afraid to go into class. I knew this teacher from my primary school she had changed jobs from my primary school to my high school her own choice I didn’t no she was actually following me. This went on for about a year I attended a few classes over that year with the provision of my time out teacher which was going well I was finally starting to get back into a normal routine of going to my tutor in the morning to sign in then go to lessons alone I tried to focus on my class work rather than the bullying. Finally the summer came around and I think I was so happy as I could just go out every day let the people that actually cared about me and didn’t want to bully me :) I had friends from other which made the 6 weeks fly by was amazing to have a normal life again. Then it was time to go back to school again 😢 this was the year where we had a brand new tutor so I had to get used to someone completely different that didn’t no about the bullying issue nothing so felt like I was going backwards with my support. I tried to forget about everything and act as if nothing bothered me and I had forgotten everything that was said. I managed to work on my friendships and even manage to get myself a boyfriend that I was happy about. Really cheered my life up a lot I was just focused on getting my class work done and spending time with my outside school friends. Until one day I was at school and showing a new girl around as she had some issues making friends so I stood with her at break and at lunch and showed her where her next classes we’re she managed to make new friends within a week and she was settled in and I kind of them made it my mission to make sure no one felt like me,felt left out an bullied that i would make sure they werent alone and had a friend. So the next few weeks went past and I was minding my own business sorting out some of my course work when my time out teacher came up to me asked me how I was doing and whether I wanted to have a session with her like I did once a week and I said yes that’s fine I’ll collect work from one of the tutors and come down to the classroom. She introduced me to a girl that became my best friend that I thought was possibly forever really connected with her as she was actually like me had the same hobbies liked the same sort of things like dance business shopping going out with friends so I took her under my win as she was new and had just moved to my home town from Wales. I literally thought this is where i am going to turn my life around and sort all this bullying out this is my fresh start :)