Woke up at something like 8am or so. So I guess it means I slept some 10 hours. Also I just realised it's Valentines Day today. I can't believe that did not occur to me before that today would be Valentines Day.
Still bleeding. Still not dead. Mood -2.
This morning while laying in bed I decided to try and live this week without temptations as a way to try and live a more holy life. It's often hard to live without earthly temptations, but I realised that for all their glitter and shine in the end they have not made me any happier. Also I hope I'll remember to make something for Iveta today.
I looked at the fridge and realised I really don't know what to make her as nothing inspires me. Also reading the book brought up some bad memories and reminded me all those reasons why she doesn't deserve my kindness, so I don't know. Maybe I'll bail this time too. This is all just so depressing.
Today I continued reading Flowers in the Attic. I have now read 167 pages which amounts to 56% of the book. I've finished part one. The story is no less ridiculous. Yet nevertheless I still enjoy it though admittedly today's reading wasn't as eventful as yesterdays. The people in the story are just crazy.
It's now 15.20 and I still haven't eaten anything. I just felt so apathic all day and no desire to eat at all, not that I wanted anything anyway. I'm starting to feel weird.
In lieu of my little experiment when I called Iveta I only asked to buy ketchup. Though I can't deny that I'm hoping that she'll buy something delicious just because. She does that sometimes and today is Valentines so... who knows.
She bought chips and chocolate. YAY!
So I ate the chips and later she made me potatoes, plus I forgot to mention that she brought home the parasite. I watched some Angry Joe videos while eating. And yet again there is nothing on the TV to watch. I mean there's Titanic on TV3 but I'm not in the mood to watch it. I guess I'll have figure out what DVD to watch while watching SImpsons. I've been meaning to watch Underworld but never really felt like seeing it. END OF ENTRY.
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