Why aren’t you here with me? Why aren’t you writing me? I need you now…
I miss you, I love you, though I don’t know what you´re up to, love me or nah, need me or nah… Or are you just a player?!
Well, I´ll be one too. If you are persistent to get me, its getting more and more fun. If you would have pressed upon me on time, I would have been yours by now, but I think you wouldn’t even imagine that.
To myself.
.... Why don’t you try, too? You know you have it for that boy. You hated to see him with other girls.., You know that it wasn’t as strong as with Jon, (see 13th march entry) but it was real. You didn’t wanna see him dividing the attention, yet it felt so good when he gave it to you. So illogical, but I guess that’s why the feeling is unique. I need not to lose it. I need to keep it.
I need him to feel…NOT INTERESTED: NOT ENTERTAINED: NOT BEING PLAYED WITH OF FOR: NOT A GOAL: NOTHING LIKE THIS… This is why I just erased this sh*t. I need to make him feel himself together with me. He will work on the same thing, he knows just the same, and he’s full of surprises you are yet to discover. Just believe. Believe him - and in him. That he will care for you…
23:02
Why am I resisting?
That our love would be stronger than the world. COWARDICE
That I don’t know what love is. ( thx jon)
That I someday wont be positive, sharp or beautiful enough. That another girl would be better for him. That he will lose interest once he sees me closer
I m afraid that I will disappoint him
LOW SELF_ESTEEM
That he wont teach me right or would hurt me. LEGIT
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