The Rain! It's Coming! in A New Beginning

After today we are supposed to get three days of rain. At least that’s what the forecast forecasts! I hope we get a lot of it, because we need it. I like green meadows and fields! Not poor dry brown thirst ones. After supper I went out and mowed the whole lawn, on the assumption that I won’t get to mow all weekend. NOW THAT RAIN HAD BETTER COME!!!!

Ya know, as I was mowing I was thinking proud-of-myself thoughts. I am proud to be a woman who can do all the mowing and also work at a hard but worthwhile job, take good care of my loved ones and be a positive influence in the world around me. It’s fine for us to be proud of ourselves, I think. With age and experiencing a few health-type problems, I’ve come to reflect more on all the things I CAN do. For most of our lives, I think we take all the things we can do for granted. That means, most of what we do seems fairly insignificant to us. It seems like “no big deal.” But all the work of all kinds that we do really IS a big deal! It’s our imprint on the world around us! Any positive work that we do, someone else benefits from, too, in some way! And I believe that is what each one of us is here for, pure and simple.

(continued Friday afternoon) Well, my co-workers and I all survived this week, hot as it has been in our kitchen, and here we are at the WEEKEND at last! Yaaaaaaaay!!!!! Sister Sandy is coming down for supper so she will be here in about 45 minutes. I’m making ravioli, the fresh kind you can buy with homemade sauce w/Italian sausage in it, and salad, garlic bread & green beans. It’s nuthin’ fancy but it’ll be pretty yummy! If I’d not had to work today I would’ve made something for dessert. But I was so frickin’ HAWT all day that I am just pleased that I’m cooking dinner! :oO !!

You who read me might remember that I’m an astrologer. I do birth chart analyses for people. That’s something lots of people want but rarely does anyone want to pay for! :oD !! If they DID want to pay, I could quit my day job maybe!! heehee! But anyhow, I have never had anyone do mine for me. So this woman I know, Izolda, who does charts sometimes too, posted on FB that she felt like practicing her skills some and would do charts for the first ten people who asked for one. So I asked, and she said she would have it for me in a few days. BOY WAS I EVER EXCITED!!!!! But then she sent it to me. And I was like, “What the hell? Is THIS all she does?!” It could have been done from a freakin’ BOOK, for cryin’ out loud! It didn’t sound like it came straight out of someone’s head at all. But I didn’t tell her that of course; I thanked her. BUT this told me something. It told me, my ability to analyze birth charts is both a gift and skill that not very many people have. Oh, I mean, there are people who know astrology and can tell you every “what this means” and “what that means.” But not many can synthesize ALL of the things that are in a chart so as to explain the WHOLE THING TOGETHER. They can only do the bits and pieces. So, I should not let my skills go kerflooie from total lack of use. So, I messaged a good friend of mine who I only see at the big pagan gatherings, Scott Alan Burbridge, and said “Hey Scott, would you like me to do your birth chart?” Of course he said sure, and gave me his birth info, so I am working on it. It seems I’m thinking and talking about working on it more than I am actually working on it, but I will have it sent off to him by the end of this weekend.

Tomorrow Sister Carol and I are going to the Dover Mall to see “The ZooKeeper’s Wife.” I feel bad for not telling Sandy. Sandy might want to go see it. But Carol is the one who says she can’t “risk” trying to patch things up “because she will just do it again.” By “do it” she means “act like herself, which makes me uncomfortable.” It makes me mad. But I can’t NOT love Carol! Anyway, I don’t know what Joe & I might do on Sunday, but wherever we go, we’re inviting Sandy to go with us. And guess what, I won’t tell Carol about that either. THAT is what makes ME uncomfortable, dammit....having to keep things from people. I don’t “have to.” But I don’t want to cause anyone hurt feelings. Maybe it wouldn’t even do that, but I just don’t feel like going there.

I’m glad I can basically get along with anyone and everyone. I’ve had to learn social skills, though. Everyone does! We’re not born with ‘em! But when people don’t learn all of ‘em, it’s usually because they’ve been hurt in some way that really runs deep and the wound left in them from that emotional hurt hasn’t been able to heal. And that’s very sad, really.

Well, I am pleased that I have managed to stay awake ‘til after 9 o’clock tonight! Now I’m gonna reward myself....by going to bed! :oD !!